Life is Like a Role Playing Game

My Portrait of Life

2010-05-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

I found my answer to my problem. All this time I keep on asking God why I'm here for, is there a purpose, why I endure this and that. I've been looking up at the signs and hints every where which only trims down to 1 simple word....and that word is Life.

Life is like a very general thing, it could mean anything. And I can sometimes get impatient when it comes to waiting. But now it has been pin pointed down to a clearer definition now thanks to a special person who has help me alot. After hearing her inspiration story of her life, I finally understand it. I finally found the answer....I just need to keep at it.

Here's what I learn, each of us are created very differently even though some of us are related, siblings or twins. Each of our life is a different concept of a story, a very different portrait. You just need to explore yourself and picture it out what it is.You're probably thinking why does it matter right? Well, it might help or inspire other people as well...can never know,right?

Mine is an image of a car driving on a clear highway all the way to it's destination.

Let me explain,I will always take the most clearer road or those that not many people would take . I always like to take an alternate way and easier to be able to achieve what I want or convenient for me. I mean, if you can find an alternate route to lead u to the same place and it's faster, why not right? Easy way doesn't always mean that the task is easy, it'll be difficult...but shorter time and no need to rush. When I find that a certain solution to solve a problem is always so difficult, I will try my best to find the fastest solution that saves cost and time. But ofcourse, if there isn't any...take your time, keep to the old road till you find a new one. Patience is a virtue.

And not many people know this, but I don't drive fast. Only when I want to cut people. That's how it is in my life. I'm not in the hurry to reach for that success...it'll eventually come to me, I just need the focus and the patience for it. What happens when u speed on the highway? when shit happens how? terrible things happen and you'll be in coma or worst. That's how it is for me, if I'm impatient...I'll never get it or I'll loose the opportunity. And always drive safely and try to follow the rules. No point keep on breaking the law and get caught and rendering you useless to achieve what you want. If I drive like a turtle...so be it! Don't you know that the turtle wins the race? haha.

So that's what my portrait is. A clear smooth highway for me to drive on 80-90 km/h to reach my destination within like maybe 15-20min? comparing to Federal highway in the morning?

Now all I have to do, is to keep on driving on a clearer road. Don't drive fast or do stupid things to piss off other people, keep ur eyes on the road...focus, stay safe and eventually you'll reach ur destination in time.

I thank the one person who has help me finding the answer, I really thank you alot...you've inspired me greatly =).

My animation clip 1

2010-03-08T05:51:00.000-08:00

Some of my friends out there knows that I do 3d Animation for a game company but have not seen some of my animation. Well, u guys will have a small peek of my animation. Models are not done by me, I only animate the characters, even the sword drop. So here's one of them. Enjoy it =)

More will come

Kindred Hobby Tournament Malaysia

2010-03-07T07:24:00.000-08:00

On Saturday March 6 2010, Me and my colleagues and a friend of a colleague and also another friend drive to the Legio Malaysia to compete in the 5oop Warhammer 40 000 Kindred Hobby Tournament. For my army list, vist my other page ( blackragemadness.blogspot.com ). So we arrive there in time before the check in closes.

We got ourselves a free t-shirt, sandwich for snack and a bottle of water. Oh, and we also got counters for the game for free! We check out the models that are there. Legio Malaysia is a place where all kinds of boardgaming terrains, miniatures and tables are made .

This terrain on table 02 is pretty sweet, love the arrangement to make it look like a post apocalyptic battleground.

Here is the building which acts like a tower in a middle of a clear plain terrain, looks cool aint it?

Here are the Awards that's given. There's 4 types of awards....Tournament Champion, Best General, Best Sportsmanship and People's Choice award. Tournament Champion pretty much sums it up what it means, Best General I'm not too clear what it means, but I think it's the 1st runner up or something, Best Sportsmanship displays good teamplay and etc and the People's Choice award is for the best looking miniature in the tournament.

I find this eldar army pretty awesome because of the clear details and color schemes.

The admins announcing the rules and rounds.

Round 1 me and my teammate fought againts a pair of Tyranids...and this guys are pretty tough! One keep spawning termagaunts and Mawlock attack, and the other deepstrikes down witha lots of tyranid warriors and it hit right near our army. So round 1 we lost because we are weak againts melee attackers.

This is a Daemon Prince with a Tyranid head and tail, pretty cool looking. It's hiding from the orks.

Round 2 - We proceed to the next round and we faced againts Black Templars and an Ultramarine. Both space marines that are balanced firepower and melee. Manage to take out their heavy fire. Then a surprising thing happened, the Ultramarines drop pod landed behind us, good move! But they tried to take out our tanks though... so when that failed, we blast his troops and left only the drop pod. The the black templar termies teleported near the same area as well and contested for out objectives...in the end, we ended up with a tie but we scoring 3 points more than them.

Round 3 - Round 3 we though it could be pretty quick because it's only 2 rhinos on the table with their troops on the table and Abaddon deep striking later. But damn, we can't take down those rhinos! Their tough! we manage to wrecked one of them but they were already near us. THen abaddon came in very early which we never expect them to. So we ended up not winning the last round too with almost total annihilation.

So all the players gather around for the reward ceremony. And thi is the funniest moment for me, read on to find out.

The admin announcing the winners for the awards

So obviously we weren't the champs and our army is not the best looking out there cuz there are definitely other better ones. I mean we are surrounded by veteran players compared to me. But here's a funny thing.

Me and my teammate got the Best Sportsmanship Award......

Wow.....they enjoyed killing us. Ahahaha, but we did have fun playing with them. We are the only ones who got all 3 ratings (highest) for all 3 rounds. Pretty unbelievable and first time winning an award for a tournament.the best tournament I have compared to Magic the Gathering tournament. Oh yeah, forgot to mentioned...we got another award as well. We got the Bloodiest Award...which is obvious cuz our army got killed alot. And according to the admins...we are the only team grabbing 2 awards in a tournament, but it's not our fault!

here's my awards, cool eh? ;D

Group photos with the rest of the winners and the Admins.

I do hope they have another tournament, cuz I'll definitely come for it and do better and grab more awards!! Wahahaah!

Surprise!

2010-01-30T18:37:00.000-08:00

Hie there! it's been awhile since I came here. Been busy with alot of things compared to last time. So what's been happening in my time?

Well, I've been going to gym for like 3-4 times a week. I tried to make it weekdays but sometimes got other plans as well. Work out was good, lost up to almost 4kg....but I feel I've gained back some after yesterdays my 'surprise' birthday party(I'll get to that later). By March 6th I'm entering a warhammer 40 000 Hobby Kindred Tournament organized by Legio Malaysia and it's a pair up tournament. So I'm entering as the Space Marine teaming up with my buddy/co-worker Christopher Ong who'll be playing his Imperial Guard army...so more details in my Warhammer 40 000 blog.

I've been hanging out lunch with a friend in my old college and it's fun because I like talking to her, alot of infos and sharing and same understanding. Very rare that I can find girls like that (no offense ar girls). Most of her interest are geeky in a way but so am I, and most of the people in One Academy. And the truth is, dorks are cooler (watch Sydney White) than cool people/wannabes.

Now, like I said earlier...yesterday night I had a 'surprise' birthday party at Itallianese Pyramid although my birthday is 2 days on the way. The people who are in are most of my ninjutsu juniors from Seafield, Lionel, Chris and his gf. I came upstairs and I already noticed a long table with alot of people....and they shouted 'Happy Birthday'. Oklar, I was damn happy when they did that although it wasn't loud enough ( plus I noticed Mas and Lionel from outside) . But one downfall is just not enough girls there...cis, siapa organizer ni. Anyway, Lionel ordered the food and we had like pizzas, bread with something something, oyster with spaghetti, some sort of curry puff and many more. My drinks I ordered mojito! Awesome drink although they kinda put too much mint leaves inside and the lime seeds were just annoying.

Came the birthday boy's cake, my cake! Wahahaaha. It was huge...the cake was Tiramisu, the girls got the cake from Secret Recipe. They made me stand up on the chair and give a speech...I was cool with that, made alot of wish list, tried to blow the candles with my eyes close ( they move the cake around) and those idiots smash my face on the cake. Luckily I'm pro enough to save the cake and only the top thick cream layer suffered,cis...lil bangsats.. >D. Cake was good~ Good job girls! But because of the cake and the food...I think I gained back 3kg =__=, but the whole event was good. It's so touching....the students whom I've tortured in ninjutsu for so many years gave me a surprise party, thank u ar!

Oh god....I just realized, I'm gonna be 24 =__=. But this is just one of the great things for me in 2010, Woo hoo!

2010 baby!!

2010-01-02T20:57:00.000-08:00

Good riddens! 2009 seems like a long sufferring year! Thank God it's gone now! And hello 2010! And lots and lots of good things gonna happen this year! You know how I know it? Because I'm gonna make it so! Made a resolution toast with the guys that this year we shall change for the better and see it for ourselves by the end of the year. It's a challenge I'm most willing to take! I've already started with one of them, I've just joined a gym just right next to my apartment called BodyXpress. The place is not so big, but it's good enough cuz the place have good equipments, a different kind of exercise called cross fitness which looks kinda interesting, marine training, martial arts training, ball throwing (something different) weights, machines that work out different parts of ur body and a few classes. They also have a break area where I can get free fruits and supplements, water and other things as well. The deal is good too, so I just joined cuz it's also very convenient for me. So if u want to find out more about BodyXpress, let me know ya? hehe.

I've been given as the lead Animator in my workplace, so yeah...it is a promotion, but it also means more work, but I get to lead a few animators as well...which is cool for me. I believe that we will be able to finish the game by this year without any problems cuz now we have a proper pipeline now. So I'm gonna do all my best for this year. Happy 2010 to you all! Cheerz!

Life, Me.

2009-12-20T09:38:00.000-08:00

10 more days till the end of the year, but within those days...anything could happen. But I've already decided what I should do next year 2010 and those decision are based on what is good for me. Something that I need to do is that I need to search and fix myself because I'm missing something in life. Life as you know it is not what you think it is...it's much more vast and complicated than that. It's about what you've experienced through out your previous years...love, friendship, hardship, betrayal, stress, bullied, misery, despair and etc are all part of how Life is. The question is, do you understand why all of that are happening to you? Don't blame things or others or critisize or feel regret about why all those happened....learn it and understand why it happened. Those who failed to do so failed to understand the real meaning of how life is.

Please don't ask me about what Life is because I'm still learning...we all are. Only whether we realize things or not. Some will say that "Life is full of challenges" or "Life is all about balance" or etc.... those are quite true, but there's more than just what u hear more often.

Here's what I think.

Life is about how you live through it.

You want to tell other people how they should live their life? Think about yours first before you open your mouth. You need to be humble, honest, willing to admit and commitment to understand things you've done in the past. Nobody is always right because we are not perfect. We shouldn't let our ego take control of us. Even though you feel left out from the rest of your friends cuz they have their own gang...you shouldn't blame them. I'm like that, I already know that some people that I'm used to be close with already form their own private gang and I'm not part of it. If that's what they decide and have their own reason, I shouldn't be a busy body of finding out the reason why. If they have their own reason, I respect it. If it extended to the point that I'm all by myself...then that's how Life will come to be for me.

In life, you have to loose something....cause sooner or later, you'll gain something.

If I can't find love, that's how it is...difficult. Could be because of many reasons. Whether there's such thing as the best will come the last, I do not know. But if fate decides that I don't deserve such pleasure in experiencing love, I can't fight it...because the more I fight to hold on to the hope, the worst/further that hope that I've been reaching for goes away. Atleast that's just me. But I can't have hatred and dissapointment take over me because of that...it'll just make my character worst than before. All I can do is just let it take that hope away from me.

I realize over the past few years that no matter how much I help or how nice I am to the others, not many will acknowledge me , a gratitude or returning the favor...just only be gracious of me doing so for them...that is what my name means. But I don't blame them.... it's useless to do so, I look at myself and there's not many unique things about me that I deserve acknowledgement. I can only stand infront of them and smile because they are happy. How I feel....I guess I don't give a shit anymore. Their happiness is more important than me.

This is how I'm living now.....and that is why 2010, I want to fix it. And I want to do this on my own,....not with God's help or a miracle. I even prayed for a miracle from him till now I'm still waiting for it. So I'm done waiting, I'm gonna do it by myself...it's wasting alot of my time. Friend's help I guess I still can take... but I need to do this on my own. That is why I'm taking a break next year, need to do some cleaning up in me.

2010, faster come..../ Dragon Age Origins

2009-12-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

I've come to realize that I'm no longer closely connected to the people I used to, now that everytime I go for service, I'm like a stranger. That's why I never bothered to stay back and fellowship, not even a hi from some that I know...so imagine I just stand around there not being talked at like a dunggu fella, a waste of my time. That's why everytime the service ends, I didn't hesitate to leave and have lunch at my apartment cafeteria. Even duty feels like a 2nd job now instead of really performing ur best. So fuck this, I'm just gonna start a new life starting 2010... I'm just only gonna focus on myself, what I need to fix, what I need to loose, what I need to forget, what I need to develope and what I need to begin. That is why, 2010....faster come.I can't wait any longer.

Lately I've been playing Dragon Age Origins and Left 4 Dead 2! Yes, I've finally played Left 4 Dead 2! Freaking Awesome! But 1st, Dragon Age Origins.

Dragon Age Origins is about the invasion of the Darkspawn and it is your duty as the Grey Warden to defeat them. How? well that's the adventure. You are suppose to gather ur army/alliance to go againts them while then helping out desperate folks, uncovering mysteries, meeting new characters, falling in love with one of them, dungeon raiding, get cool armors and items and pretty much save the town to gain their trust.

Now, Dragon Age is just like your typical Fantasy Adventure game, but wait. This Game enhanced that element itself making it real for the players to experience how's it like being an adventurer and save the land . As a normal RPG game, the character levels up...all character can. How u level and build the character determines how the character will be able to perform in the game when fighting or interacting with the NPCs of the game. Story wise is quite simple to say but each town or location have their own stories and many scrolls or books can be found all over as an additional reading material to uncover the history of the place/ people and get read some love letters~ Boring i say.

Character Animation is well done, not much motion captures used for this game...pretty much manually animated. Damn realistic I say, pretty convincing. And the cinematography when it comes to interacting the NPC is good, a very good reference for me. With this, it makes the conversation less boring. Oh, conversation will determine the outcome of it...so choose wisely when conversing with the characters, u may get extra things or information.

the guy in red armour is my character and the rest of the party members are the existing characters in the game.

The Design of the game is simple amazing, it's detailness never cease to amaze me. It really brings out the quality of the models, armors, items, swords and etc. Making it realistic looking makes the whole game more fun to play it. Environments I would say that the composition how they made it is just saving alot of polygon counts there, but enough to fill the space that is necessary. The texture quality are clear to the smallest bit, by it the texture is enhanced with few layer shading and higher resolution. I can play this game in window mode with my Radeon x1650 graphic card! The lighting is well balanced and suits the mood in certain areas to make it feel more of thrilling adventure for the players.

My character performing the finishing moves on Broodmother.

For the gameplay, I would say that It's your typical Neverwinter style with the pausing and make tactical planning. U can view your camera to 3rd person to Isometric view for better tactical strategies. Remember when I said that how u developed the characters determines the performance in battle? IF u dun upgrade them well with suitable skills to ur liking, better equipments and enough proper stats, your character can survive all the battles. Cuz if you don't nd the rest of your party member dies, the game is over.

But for what I think, the combat can sometimes be unfair.... u'll sometimes be ambush by 20 attackers along ur journeys. 4 againts 2o...madness, even with proper strategies...you'll be like a half dead fish or just die being ganked by them.

Along your journey, u'll find more companions to aid u on your quest and etc. You can even have a relationship with one of your companions. Just simple add more approvals by talking to them or give them gifts. Or you can just go to Denerim and get some action in the Pearl.

Oh, if you purchase the original package of Dragon Age, you'll be able to download the special character Shale. Shale is a stone golem created by the dwarfs to battle the Darkspawn centuries ago. U'll bump into a merchant and he'll give u the rod of command, and he'll give u the location of Shale. Once u've freed him, he'll be added in to ur party member. Shale is one of my favourite character, Why? The guy freaking hell sarcastic. He hates birds, can't blame him though...years of not being able to move and speak....birds tends to use him as the loo.

So I would recommend Dragon Age Origins to those adventure lovers out there, get the limited edition if you can!

my ratings :

Torchlight!

2009-11-05T07:52:00.000-08:00

WaaazzzaaaaUp! How's it going? My latest post will be a game review about a recent game I currently addicted. The game is called Torchligh! Developed by Runic Games...The same people who did Diablo, Hellgate london are making a comeback in this Action Role-Playing game with a different style from their other project. In this game, you travel to a town called Torchlight and battle your way down in the mines to put an end to the evil schemes of Alric and save the town! Pretty much the same story as the 1st Diablo.

You get to choose 3 classes, pretty much the same as the 1st Diablo. But in this game...even though we know those classes are mage, warrior and rogue...they came up with a fancier name= Alchemist, Destroyer and Vanquisher! Cool, huh? After that...you get to pick a pet! Now pets are limited here but u can transform them to different creature in a given amount of time!

You get to pick a dog or a cat.

Now the usefullness of the pet system is that it acts as a sidekick to the character. It can attack, pick up items,store itmes, wear rings and necklaces, they can use spells if given to them and....the new system which they applied in their genre is the ability to store all ur items in the pet's (bag or something) and u can send him away to sell the items!

Torch light battle system is almost the same as Diablo but with the cartoonish style, it makes the game look more interesting. And a good thing about this game is that all classes can dual wield and dual wielding can be in different combination of 1 handed weapons. Weapons that are available in torch light are sword, axe, staff, wand, spell scrolls, bows, bowgun and Pistols/firearms! When dual wielding, u can combine different kinds of wielding , like a sword with a pistol. This combo is the most interesting ever cuz u can shoot and slash out in close combat.

The character upgrade system is the same as any other RPG. It can upgrade stats and skills. And u'll gain more to learn ur skills by earning fame.Gaining it is easy, just kill the special monsters.

Damage value can be seen when u hit or be hit. Some of the skills all character will have.

The effects , particle effects and the environment modelling are simply stunning.

This game was only meant for a fun game, not a Baldur's Gate story telling. It focus more on the gameplay and what can they give more to the players. I give a big round of applause for the creator of this game, they did a very well job for this game. KEEP IT UP,GUYS!!
The rating I give for this game....IS! :

Apocalypse!!! Emperium VS Xenos Scum!

2009-10-26T06:08:00.000-07:00

Waaaazaaaa uP!!

Weekend kinda wasted my time sleeping alot. Why I slept alot? because of the Friday Night gaming! Hell Yeah! It was the bomb! Not sure whether other's have done this before....but me, my colleagues and one of our colleagues church friends gathered together and have ourself a really really big Warhammer 40 000 gaming! At first we planned to have like 2-3 games one on one with each other, but since we have 8 people and damn nice got 4 players play the Emperium forces...we decided to have a 6000points APOCALYPSE match!!! xD

Each person will have up to 1500points of army , so it's a 4VS4 game. The forces of Emperium are the Imperial Guards(chris), The Blood Angels (me), Dark Angels(Dylan) and Ultramarine(Michael) facing againts the Xenos! Orks(Yvonne) Eldar(eric)Necron(adrian) and Chaos Space Marine(Louis). Now I can't really remember most of the details of the game but I will try.

[Here we are setting up the table together]

So we roll for the mission, the game was Objective Points Spear Head and we got the 1st to go!Emperor was with us! Garhhh! So we put out our models 1st and see what we have, then we got out of the room and make some battle plans (heheheheh). Mission objectives are simple...your troops must capture as many points there is on the board, and ther's only 3...we have one, the other side have one and only left was the one at the middle on top of a ruined building and we are both suppose to contest for it!

[The Forces of Emperium are strong and powerful~]

So we begin our turn, we move up our land raiders slowly...see the amount of Land Raiders here >D. The 1st turn Chris bombarded Yvonne's ork boys at the front as it is in the line of sight and the biggest threat for some of us and they are in big groups...and to us, big group is a no no >D. So 1st turn was mostly taking out most of the troops before they can contest for the objective points. So they too did the same thing when it comes to their turn, Yvonne with a vengeance used her Big Mech and teleport blast on Chris's tanks, Adrian with her Monolith move front and hold the line. Chaos move up his rhinos and the Eldar are casting spells and shooting at us.

Now the 2nd turn came, we move up and spread away our land raiders , I was concentrating on t he Chaos space marine, Chris flank from the right to use his Valkyrie Vandetta to blast the Necron destroyers, Dark Angels multi task by going for the objectives and deal with the orks, Michael back up Dylan againts the orks. The Chaos rhino proved to be a tough little tank cuz it wouldn't die! only shaken!By my devastator squads and my land raider! Garhh! My Assault troops come in but I'm quite far from them.Chris successfully obliterated the Necron Destroyers with his OP tanks (as always) and concentrates his next target on the Ork Warbikes

Most of the turns are a little bit fuzzy so I can't really remember the details from here on, mostly it was all shooting and blasting while we were trying to contest the middle objective points and Dylan and Michael's forces meddle with their objective points

[My forces(in red) in action againts the orks and the Chaos's squad]

The game ended with a draw, my Assault squads which were so far behind managed to contest the objective point and survive even though left 2 men in that team(the rest was obliterated by that black pyramid called the Monolith). If it weren't for Dylan and Chris's troops clearing the way for me, the game would end with a victor. We have to ended anyway cuz it was 4.20am!!! Ahahaahah!! We started around 11pm I think cuz of the preparation and battle plans. But who cares! This game rocks! If there's gonna be another match, I'm there! FOR SANGUINUS! FOR THE EMPEROR

For those who don't really know what Warhammer 4oooo is all about, here's a quick intro:

Warhammer 40,000 is a miniature board game where you collect these miniatures, paint them, make an army of your own and go up againts any player who plays it or even tag team play it, or a 8 man tag team! hahaah. This game is not just simply play like a kid's toy...there's rules and things that need to follow. This game forces you to strategize your game and sometimes there's different scenarios like objectives and stuff and get to see other player's cool painted models. It was damn fun that night, could say the 1st ever huge Apocalypse in Selangor state(not sure other places in Malaysia have done it before)

What's Up!? 0,o

2009-10-18T01:11:00.000-07:00

Heyya'All! ( ok..that doesn't rhyme) What's happening? Here's what's been going on lately and what I've been doing:

1. I've been busy trying to do extra work at home 3d Modelling some characters for me to work on the animation, the bummer part is everytime I come back from work....it's so hard to open up 3dsMax in my computer ( cuz I've been doing my work in 3dsMax from 9-6pm every weekdays!) But atleast i'VE started somewhere.

2. I've been playing this new game which I kinda regret buying it and so not worth it man. The game is called Aion : Tower of Eternity. My friend keeps telling me "Damn good wehh!Better than WOW(world of warcraft)!". So I just thought of trying it out since it just release. Now, the game cost about Rm179 if u buy the limited edition, it's almost around Rm340? The game comes along with the 30days try out. So I thought it would be okay then....so, the game is not out in stores yet I think, I have to go straight to the distributor in Klang Bukit Bintang and get one. I got the game, now....what I didn't know is that...in order for me to create the account and activate the game = I have to pick how I'm going to pay, so I picked time card.....guess what, I have to get that time card in order to activate it...and it comes in 2 months for RM100....I was like " WHAT!?It says here 30 days free try!I have to get a time card to validate my payment method!? WTF?" So I end up paying all together about Rm280 wehhh.

Garhh....but it's ok anyway since I don't have to reload till December. But damn....my friend is wrong, the game is boring! It's just exactly like Lineage II, heck...it's the same people who did it! The only reason why they say it's better than World of Warcraft is because that players can fly( only at certain areas with duration of time) And the rest of the gameplay is just the same as World of Warcraft... The artworks and concept design seems okay....it just look beautiful and detailed....but not breathtaking (weird,right?) It's just....dull -__- not quite realistic to say and everything seems to be so expensive. The equipment gears outlook is not random like World of Warcraft, so other players won't feel curious to what equipment u have because your look is just the same as theirs, only maybe after 10 levels the equipment look a lil different.

Battle system seems ok except for one thing....you wouldn't know which creature is elite and which creature is not. Now, Elite in World of Warcraft means that they are same level as the normal creeps but way stronger and harder for you to kill, most likely have to be in a group to kill them. Elites can only be in certain areas, a boss or in a dungeon/raid areas. But this, has no indication whether it's an elite or not. So you get killed and u're spawned back from the save point (not the nearest graveyard and claim back your body method like WOW). The monsters look like crap to me seriously. It's not as unique or interesting like WOW. So those of you who are WOW players and want to try Aion Tower of Eternity....DON'T!! U're gonna waste your money if you do! It's nothing like WOW! For the rest who feel like play another Lineage II game, here's the game for you. You get to experience the Asian version of World of Warcraft....just that only 2 race kind of a game =\

3. Been looking up through a few games that I plan to get, and next mid of the month Left 4 Dead 2 is coming in stores. Now alot of gamers are kinda pissed about this because the 1st game Left 4 Dead only released like 9 months ago and suddenly Left 4 Dead 2 gonna release soon, and plus it's not a downloadable content. So, players have to buy another game for it or pay+download through STEAM. Oh well, can't blame Valve if they want to make big money right?

Anyway, this game has extra more features compared to the 1st game. Features like:
a. All new characters
b.All new weapons
c. Adding melee weapons (fire axe, guitar, frying pan, baseball bat)
d.Adding additional ammo types (fire ammo)
e.Additional special infected creatures ( Charger,jackal, Spitter)
f. All new maps
g. Day/Night gameplay
h. New game modes
i. A different level of playing.

So after seeing through all this features, I'm gonna go for it and buy the game. You guys should try it too then we can have more people here and host our own games and BLOW SOME MINDLESS ZOMBIE BRAINS!!! GARHH!!!

So again, to quote with my lvl 76 Blood Elf Death Knight in World of Warcraft! :

Thank U and have a nice day everyrone :)

2009-10-15T08:52:00.000-07:00

Ah Yes, you guys can ignore my wordpress blog site....it's really useless for me to use. I finally fixed my problem of unable to login to my gmail account, and now I can...I'm officially back to this blog site and I have modified a few things now.

so..YEAY! THis blog is back! and it's now called "Life is Like a Role Playing Game"

This blog now I will write about my daily happenings and events, games & movie reviews and definitely post my artworks here and also sharing interest on some of the coolest 3d Artist out there!

so stay tune!

The June Effect

2009-07-03T18:46:00.000-07:00

Here's the update of what I've been doing on the month of June. The month of June I've been phasing out alot compared to my previous months, mostly due to work stress I guess. Now I'm repairing people's work because they can't produce a good cutscene that the Boss want.Doesn't matter anyway, now it's been replace with my work now >D. A colleague of mine that I've been working with ever since I started this job will be leaving soon to further his studies in Australia. Dang, I guess he's gotten tired of our boss rambling and lecturing all day long. Yes, my boss have been very annoying lately due to paranoia. But what can we do when he keep asking us to repair improve more in the animation cutscenes, more repairing needs more time. And now the MDEC and the Sound studio are bugging him for the game. THat's why, with proper planning...all this could be avoided...you want to add so much things until it become so rojak ...this is what you get lor. My college emphasize on this fact very seriously, but he comes from a business background with so called having the knowledge in 3d and design. Fuck, if he knows all that ...so what's up with the screwed up pipeline? Why giving us a hard time in trying to produce a Blizzard quality games? Were not that good la! Hire those people la!

Anyway, other than that... my army in warhammer 40 000 board game is slowly growing . Had a few games with my colleagues. Oh, I'm currently addicted to this korean drama series titled 'THe Accidental COuple / That Fool'. It's a good show I'll say, it reminds me of the japan TV series 'Train Man', but this is different. This story involves a top actress in korea starring Kim Ah Joong (200 pound beauty) and a normal postal worker starring Hwang Jeong-Min. Why is it called the accidental couple? Well, u have to download it and watch it... gahahaha. But it's a good show, seriously.

Transformers 2 was really good , although the flow of the story was not that good...but the action is nice, awesome. Dang, MEgan FOx is damn hot in there, especially the scene where she sits on the bike painting a logo on it. Websites have been creating a false rumor saying that she used to be a man when they misinterpreted her speech she gave about her breakup with her latest boyfriend saying she 'feels' like a guy now being macho and stuff like that. But hey, this media will twist the whenever they can to make it all hype up and they get alot of money for it. Just like our local news, so interesting. I went to watch Transformers 2 with Kim Choon at Summit, THX summore baybeh! She was scared at the part where the girl turned to a robot....I dunno why, but she just started clinging to my arm shirt....weird. She'll be leaving to UK on September for her studies for 4 years and most probably stay there. Dang, I'm gonna miss her alot. I've known her since high school. I should have been with her all the time when I got the chance...but I was to clinged to someone else, serves me right. Now I'm gonna try to go out with her as much as I can till she leaves. Gonna miss u alot.

Hmm...what else, oh....cought a flu. A normal....flu.This normaly happen every year on June, the June effect. Garhhhhh.....

What if it Ends?

2009-06-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

I apologize for my previous post if I have offended anyone, I can't help it that I need to write how/what I feel and think about things around me. But do try to share, debate or whatever to object my point because if you don't, then you'll take it that it's true or just denying it or dun bother and go on with ur fairy tale lives. So the next post in here will be, what do you expect/do when something ends?

Most likely u'll think that it's mostly relationship, but there's alot more other than that. What happens when u get fired without a 1 week notice? What happens when you got hit by a car at the side and you feel cold and air getting thinner and thinner? What happens when your parents disown you?(unlikely to happen here anyway) What happens when something u hold to for a long time and you loose it in an instant? What happens when it just...ends?

Basically, I would say to try and move on.....no no, that's what everyone else would say. The morale is actually to learn to adapt, learn from it and look at the bright side, maybe comparison and be self cautious...don't just 'move on' without anything to learn from, that's stupid...you'll end up doing it again and fall to the same trap. But some things in reality cannot be cured by just mere words. For example, you're in love with your 'close' friend for like about few years and u decided to confront her and make a go for it, but in her respond...it's a no, she wish that we could still just be 'friends' , like brother & sister(ouch) like pen pals or etc. But to you, it's difficult... your friendship won't be the same as before. Most likely u guys won't be close anymore and probably drift apart. This part...it's a hole in ur now... u may be able to forget the event, but your heart will remember it forever.

It things end, don't just let it end... don't just say or listen to people saying 'just move on'. Gosh, it's like a passing after u died. When things end, well...u can try to make a 2nd attempt but I doubt 2nd times is a charm, don't bother for the 3rd time. Oh, but this only applies for relationship and friendship huh? Well if u lost an item, just go get one...end of advice, wait...get a better one and to know to keep it safe. When u loose a job, u better have a back up plan. Don't just let the boss fired u without a 1 week notice, take the initiative to sue that bastard/bitch, but make sure to know their background too....well, just think smart, don't go rushing.

OK, ends.

Where am I?

2009-06-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

I've been out of picture for a long time, I have no idea what to blog about because my life is not interesting anymore. So where do I stand now? Where am I? I just don't know. Everything happening around me are just happy and exciting , but I'm not happy and excited. I go to church and everyone feeling blessed and joyful, but I'm not. A new game release and it's cool & awesome, but I'm not bothered. I'm not sure what's going on with me. I'm phasing out from everything. I don't even know what my friends are doing now. No invites, no calls to hang out... not even a 'hi' on MSN. Actually...I never get any 'hi's in MSN or Facebook. Most of my contacts are busy or away... and I don't actually send a message when they are in those status because 1: It'll be intruding while they are probably busy with their own stuff and 2: they won't actually reply back. I live by those rules for most of my life.

But other than that, lately I don't really bother what the rest are doing,...well except for some maybe. But those people I rarely see them. My life has really became a crumpled paper that has been thrown away. Did that damn prophetic reverent placed this cursed on me? Well I'm sorry for whatever that I do not know that I've done, I never know anyway. But whatever that is, it has lead me to this point that I'm all alone here on this land. The people here are difficult to say, they are difficult to be with.

People here are not like the west, Asians are different... seriously, they don't like confrontational approach because it's dangerous and weird. Can't blame them, killers are a lot here in this pathetic country. Communication is a factor here in Malaysia, especially with a different gender....and it's crazy. So many forwarded messages about signals and the wrong words to use has implanted most of their brains now and it's so difficult to communicate with them now. It's like a daily exam with them, if you answer or did something wrong...you're gonna fail unless they give u a 2nd chance. Oh, best part....if u call them, and they say they are busy (not telling u what they are busy with or made up story) and ask u to call them next time....just don't bother. She/he probably gonna do that for like...everytime until maybe miraculously they are really free. They'll give tons of signals and expecting u to figure it out, and you know what.... it's getting tiring. It shouldn't be a test, because when u have that....it's difficult for everyone to click or maintain a good relationships because they will build doubts and trusting issues.

So it's simple, if u do something...it's gonna be difficult, you don't do anything...it's also gonna be difficult. The people here you can say are just crazy and hard to play with. As a friend it's okay... but u want to further the relationship, one of them will just find it weird because they don't see u that way. Hmmm...maybe that's why I can't find her, the right one....because there isn't. She only exist in my head. Even if I found a decent girl that I would probably get married to, I won't actually be happy. Even now anyone here who's on a relationship or chasing after the one they love/like.... without a doubt, there won't be a happy story. Even if there is, it's just a fantasy. Disney, you've brainwashed alot of people, dude.

IF any of you disagree and still believe that there is, then you better convince me well that there is such a thing here on this land.

Meet My Dog

2009-05-18T07:35:00.001-07:00

Bored, so I'm gonna intro u guys to..... my dog. His name is Nicky, yes...Nicky. The previous owner thought it would be cute to name a male dog that, plus...he is too dumb to know it. Just look at him! He doesn't even care if his name is a girl's name!

My dog by this year will be 15 year's old. For a dog's age...that's pretty old actually, very old. He is a hybrid mix of Pumeranian and spitz.... although I'm a lil clueless as to why some of the color feature on his head is the same as the German Shepard....then again, German Shepard and a pumeranian mating.....that's just ridiculously funny >D.

*Ermm....yeah, my sis have to shave the hair on his body because it's spreading fur all over the place, although I do not know why the head and the tail was spared from the shaver.This was few months back, I'll laugh at him whenever he looks like that...and he just smile at u not knowing that I'm teasing him! That's so great! >D*

We had him when I was 10 years old, before then he was under the ownership of my uncle who lives at the same role as us. Because since they bought him and his sister name Rustin, they keep the sister (oh, the sister is a pure breed looking pumeranian..as in the smaller size) and we keep the brother. At first it was hard for him to adept,...then he gotten used to the sofa and mark alot of territory enough to make our home his. The real master/owner is my eldest sister, and my dog loves her very much. Me? I'm just the bully >D.

Here he is staring at me with his christmas present, the helpless giraffe soft toy.

He likes the attention and be the center of everyone, while he do silly things like throwing his dolls here and there. When he wants to 'manjaing' he'll walk to your leg and place his head there and demand that u scratch his head. And when u do, he'll drop on his back and demand that u proceed to the belly -___-. My sister has pampered him for too long.

The ever faithful watchdog who has developed the ability to guard the house and sleep at the same time, pro...

The thing about my dog is that, for a guy...he likes to act tough, but he is not. When it comes to cats...he make sures that he is 2 feet away from it and bark at it showing how 'tough' he really is, and the cat just sleeps infront of him while he is doing it.

There was one time that he saw a huge cat at the vet and he bark at it relentlessly..... and he suddenly started peeing! And walk off to my sister.... goodness -___-

Trying to use his most powerful weapon againts my mom to get whatever food that he wants, the stare....

His favourite time would be to join us at the dinner, not eating his meal....but sit beside one of us and do the cute stare at you and watch you eat. When he was younger, he could stand up and hold on to the table and look at us eat!That's Too much! But now he is old and he can't do that anymore...but his stare still haven't lost it's touch -___-.

Since now he is very old, he can't walk outside at a long distance so we put him on a baby cradle....and guess what....he likes it. (pic above)
So yea, that's all about my dog...oh, incase you're wondering why he is missing one ear... it's because he lost in a fight with another dog over a female dog name....Ehehehhe, this is gonna be funny. The female dog's name they were fighting for is Pooky...so teruk weh! A female dog name Pooky! it's a Spitz... but I guess that's why he likes her, funny though...they didn't get to mate. But when his ear came off from that fight, he was smiling as always...still saying " yea yea, I'm tough!" ahahaha....

Painful Off Day....

2009-05-15T10:47:00.000-07:00

Argh.....painful day for me today ( 15 May 2009)

I was at Sunway at my old college to meet up with a friend, as I was gonna go back....some idiot cut me to my lane suddenly when I'm about to reach the junction to turn. I kinda leave a lot of spaces from the car infront of me. At first I was thinking about U turning, but I saw the no U turn sign so I didn't but planned to turn to one of the areas and find a U turn out. Just as I look to the front...another new car ( Gen-2 Purple) was already infront of me at the junction! WTF!! I break but the momentum of 35km per hour can't stop in time, so I had to turn my car away. I manage to turn alot but end up scratching his back left side bumper with my front left side bumper. So we moved to the side and try to discuss things. The dude was a male african and he looks guilty. But I still insist on reporting, he ran off to reload his phone to call his insurans....I too called my insurans, I snap a pic of his plate number, his road tax and the exact place the accident occured.

We agreed to report to the police station, but he ask me to go to Section 8 PJ Police station to make the report, I was like " huh?? What for I drive all the way there? I might as well report to the nearest police station! So he agree to follow me, I escort him to the ss17 Police station...but half way there...I lost him! He ran off for real at the round a bout . What the hell....coward, but I still continue to report. The station asked me to report to USJ 8 station pulak because it's nearer..... huh!?? Buggers! So I have to waste more petrol and drive there . I reached there and filled the form and have to wait for about 30mins for my turn to make my report. As I got my turn, I went up...but where's the sargeant?? He's not around...one of the police officers told me that he went to investigate an accident scene.....Arghh! What the hell! On that day I'm packed with a lot of to do things to do! So I have to wait for that asshole to come. My insurans agent came to help, but I guess still doesn't make a difference. When the sargeant come and I made my report to him, I'm still at fault no matter what because I still hit his car from behind....fucking rules. If that man hasn't made a report...he will get saman by the police, and I have to pay for my own damage.

But my dad told me since it's only a few scratches and paint stains,...he can still polish it off and get a spray to cover it up....because it's only at my bumper. Arghh....I'm like what ever la because I have to rush off for demo practice for the Taylor's MCT event performance. Long story to tell, sorry.

Arrgghhhhh~!!!!

A new blog

2009-05-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

I've created 2 new blogs , this blogs will only be about Games and my hobby and maybe some few comics(if I'm free)

For Warhammer 40 000 it's at : http://theblackragemadness.blogspot.com/
And for Games it's at : http://lifeisaroleplayinggame.blogspot.com/

I got kicked out.

2009-05-02T13:04:00.000-07:00

Yes, I got kicked out....from my dreamland.

I came back around 1.30am from playing pool and yum cha with my friends, so around 2am I put myself to sleep. I struggle to focus my body and mind to enter in to a deep sleep and begin my journey back to my dreamworld which I can't remember much.

The moment I was about to enter, I have this vivid image and a slight sound that there's like a buzzing sound and a loud thunderclap (it's raining at that time) and a sign pops up and tells me this " Please Come back later " ... the next thing I know, my eyes open....i tried to go back to sleep but it won't work. Fuck.

I have to sleep, I have to wake up early to go to church because I'm on duty in the worship team.

Arrghh..screw it, gonna play World of Warcraft till my body begs me to sleep.

Unbelievable =_____="

Update

2009-04-24T09:13:00.000-07:00

Just a lil update..

Found a great place to not get saman by police near Kelana Jaya station, YES!

Do my work, fixing problems...again, and again, and again and again.

Rush back and meet with my friend to practice for tommorow's ninjutsu demo.

Had a good catch up with him as always ( although during practice I hurt his foot though, sorry!)

Brought him along and have yum cha with the rest of the church member at Papa Rich.

Wanted to go play pool, but one of the church feeling very tired and mau tidur.

So balik and now I'm typing this update.

see, not an emo post.... >D

I want my Fear

2009-04-20T07:21:00.001-07:00

My biggest fear is loosing everything about me, my existence, how I lived and what I am. Basically I'm afraid of Amnesia, can never know that I might get into an accident and that's the end of my existence to who I am, it feels like another person will be taking over my body and try to relive how I've lived. But then when I think about it, I feel that I want to have it.

I don't have much to concentrate on except for my dream job which I find it crappy at the moment because it's not the dream that I was hoping for, I'm ignoring alot of things that's bothering me, I can't get alot of things that I want, I've become more anti-social except for my colleagues, I've begun to curse alot again, I'm back to my lonely stage of depression and I've dropped the fact that true love/meant to be with theory exist. I thought about finding it elsewhere like in America or somewhere in this God created land..... but It won't make a difference anyway.

So might as well my memories be forgotten , and let some idiot play my role while I dissapear along with my memories. Amnesia doesn't sound so bad afterall, maybe that idiot after me would do better than me. I've almost lost the will to try hard now.

Fading from Reality

2009-04-10T08:00:00.000-07:00

What happens when you're disconnected from the rest? Will you become lost or will you probably believe in yourself to be able to survive all alone? Will anyone remember you? Will anyone even notice at all? Will they ask others about you? Will they find you?

But what's on your mind? Would you care?Would you bother calling them ? Would you reply their message?

But the 1st question you should actually ask yourself is that what's the reason for you to leave the herd? To leave what you've already made a reputation of yourself. Was it because you are not receiving and you've only been giving? Is it because they took your kindness and sympathy for granted? Or you feel unapreciated at all? Or maybe you think that you're wasting your time with them?

This is the feeling of phasing out from the real world, from the land that God has created for you that somehow it's too much for you to handle. You keep asking yourself whether "is this for real?", No matter how many times you close and open your eyes again..the truth remains the same.

I do not want to fade, I want to stay and be able to play games together , chill out at a bar in a bunch or maybe play pool while the girls cheer. But trying to have a unique life is difficult when you're not being noticed by many and even need to ask for your name again. I want to be normal, but what can I do when the world doesn't see me?' u might have this in your thoughts. Yes, you don't need people to tell you that Jesus loves you and he is always there for u.... because you feel it's good to have someone currently beside you to remember you and keep calling your name. Someone you could share your life with.... someone you could share your feelings. Now that's reality.....something that you should fight for.

The Earth Hour

2009-03-28T19:10:00.000-07:00

Last night from 8.30pm- 9.30pm was Earth Hour that all around the world are doing it, basically doing it at the same time. So I did my part by offing everything in my apartment and go out for my dinner. Well...I should have ate my dinner by 8.30pm, but I guess I was a little too hungry to hold it. My parents did their part by going back to Penang >D. My sister, well...she go jalan jalan at KL with her friend. So can pretty much say that We all did our part.

I was so bored at Daiki Cafe, so I started smsing alot of people as to what they are gonna do during that earth hour. Mostly all with their parents and friends, sigh....so lonely~ But Chai Yu Hui suggested we go yum cha at k3k in ss15! Woo Hoo! My night is not so boring! So I meet up with her at Asia Cafe and we walked there together and have a drink and chat alot.

Yu Hui is someone I met at Timothy's christmas Party, that time we didn't talk at all cuz she's a friend of timothy's sister's friend. Later she added my in facebook(at first couldn't recognize, LOL) and from then I get to know her better when we message each other in there and sms. So when yum cha that time it was easier for us to chat. If not it's gonna be like how my good friend Eddy trying to help me find a gf by introducing to his cousin. Hahaha...it was boring, didn't get to chat much at all cuz dunno much about her 1st and she was surfing the net and gonna do her work with her cousin's laptop, sigh....

So my night last night was very interesting, I enjoyed Yu Hui's company. Oklar, I'll bring her out go makan one day. Thanks alot, Yu Hui!

damn...I'm late for church, See ya!

Stupid Things are Everywhere!

2009-03-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

It's been so annoying lately in this year, I expected this year to be a better year but things just get more and more 'stupid!'. Why did I say so? Man...there's a lot of them. One of them is from my work, some of the cutscenes that I'm doing doesn't make sense as to why I'm even doing it!! When you play a game, you like to beat up the boss as to how you fight, right? But what if you're just sitting there and let the game itself do it for you? All you have to do is to press the button at the right time and u can just relax while watching some of the cool shots. Oh, another one. Who loves Tonyhawk or SSX3 snowboarding game? U would love to control the snowboarding urself right? But what if it's the same as how you fight with the boss? The whole track u don't control, just press left or right at the right time. FUCK! I might as well make a movie out of this damn project! It's stupid! I wasted 1 month on a stupid snowboarding gameplay! I suggested that the game handle the snowboarding while I do the special scenes in that game. This is every junction!! Freakin stupid! Boss fight is not even u fighting! It's that stupid!

Another is that my boss, I've been working my ass off to do his stupid idea of a gameplay , struggling in fact....what does he tell to the Project Manager instead to me? My progress is very slow. FUCKING HELL! I've been drawing every inch of my will and effort to do his stupid 2 scenes (1st with 2 storyboards, the other is a gameplay where the level is freakin huge) and making alot of people happy and he even likes the scenes...and he says my progress is fucking slow!? What the Fuck! The reason is because I watch video clips and some downloaded movies. I've been working for almost 2 years and he still doesn't know how I do my animation. Movies and video clip that I watch helps me in my Animation and it keeps me focus, not distracted! I finish all of the work that I've done by the deadline but it's not my fault that they want to add stuff to it because they think 'It looks damn cool man, it's very simple~' No it's not! Fucking Stupid!We're not experience 3d Artist of 20years. Other than that, me watching the movie is distracting the rest? (even though I have my headphone on)..... it's not my problem lar if they see what I do. That's what u get when u put me at a spot where I have no freakin privacy at all! Everytime they will pass by and see what I'm doing!! It's annoying!They would ask me while I'm doing my work and ask what am I watching. I'm lazy to reply cuz my focus just got severed just like that!

What else....oh, American channels are getting more stupid than ever! The writers are getting suckier and more movies lately are so crappy! Like Dragonball Evolution! The Legend of Chun Li! Welll...except for Watchmen lar, that one did a great job. But my god!Why!? Dragonball is so freaking crap!! WHY!? My all time favourite anime in the past is destroyed by their stupid wild imagination out of the box converted movie style!! Street Fighter movie too! Vega is a brunette!? Balrog shoots bazooka!? Bison wears a tux??? Charlie looks like he's gonna loose his hair in a few years time!??? WTF!?

WWE channel series, my favourite tv series...the stories is getting more stupid than ever!? WT hell....they like wives and parents get kicked at the head and paralyze and bleeding!? They like innocent suffer? What is going on!? This is more brutal than the old days! Have the Americans become more barbaric and heartless as ever! Everytime I see a helpless wife get holded by a wrestler and he's about to execute his deadly move...I just simply off the TV and hit the lights. It's not interesting anymore and it's not as fun during The Rocky era. More people like to watch bad people inflict pain and taunt at them . This is just stupid! The makes of WWE seems to be enjoying this alot!

There's alot more things going on which doesn't make sense and not making me smile at all. I'm fucking tired because I've been doing OT and I'm just gonna sleep and hopefully my stressness dicipated by the next morning.

Independent Film

2009-03-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

Just got back from KL (Time of returned was midnight). Actually supposed to stay back at work to do extra time, I'll be doing OT from Teusday - Wednesday till end of April....food hopefully can be claimed by boss since he ain't thinking about paying us extra hours for our sacrifice.

But that's not the main topic, the main topic is about this independent short film that I just went to watch and it's a preview. The name of the short film is called 'Baby the rain will fall'. The story is about a girl who has a phobia to water and she's being label as a'freak' among the normal people even though she too look as normal as them. She doesn't have alot of friend except for her close guy friend who's been with her since....well, i think since the starting of college. Basically it's a love story that a guy is in love with this girl who has this strange symptom and tries to help her overcome it.

So, comment would be : The camera angle, the music, the well used of graphic composition and location wise is very good...the acting too. The story still not there and not logic enough to tell about her phobia, it's not obvious. At first for me I thought she's afraid of the sunlight because she stays in a dark bedroom and she goes out at night. During daylight she'll wear this hat that can shade her body (I dun really know what type of hat u call for those >D)

The film was premiered at a bar which is not that big near Raja Chulan, quite packed....most of them are from the creative industry, like me! The film was done by a small group of production team and it's still progressing in producing more short films because this people believe that the film industry in Malaysia still can grow and be better. So me and few of my colleagues who came along leave our names and contact number to some of the projects their doing, hopefully maybe we get it. This kind of opportunity is really hard to come by. Incase my main job doesn't do well , this can be my backup plan.

I missed the KTM train to subang though, so I took the Putra LRT with one of my colleague to Kelana Jaya and he drop me back at my apartment. Last train for KTM was 11pm!! What the hell lar. Sigh.... but the experience was interesting. Hopefully there's something for me in the film industry.

A Dream of Death?

2009-03-03T05:40:00.000-08:00

I had a dream 2 days ago that I was dying. MY heart slowly stop beating and it feels the air and everything that I feel being ripped away from me. Problem is, I did not struggle....I allowed it to happened....But then the alarm saved my life. I was so close to dying. I don't have health problems....Oh well.

Quick Summary for the month of February

2009-03-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

Well...February certainly is an interesting month for me, here are the list of why it is so :

- 2nd February was my Birthday Celebration, had dinner at Friday's with my parents...not too bad, my sister ask them to sing a song to me. Total ambush to say...but it was interesting.

- oh, no internet at my office... dum dum DUMMMMM~!!!!!! Only 2 computers can use internet.
- Got an increement for my performance, not that much but will do I guess.
- MY BLOOD ANGELS ARMY IS GROWING!
- Did nothing on Valentine's Day
- My long time good friend Eddy hooked me up with his cousin after Valentines Day, well.... not that interesting night to say. So I made it more interesting by going out yum cha with my crazy small eye friend, Ee Min!!.
- had normal days at work
- got my U Mobile number for FREE~!! Damn right
- Dad gave me his iPhone....DAMN~ RIGHT~!!! >D
- Been conversing with new ppl.
- Found 2 songs that interest me alot to hear many times : Namida no Mukou (Gundam 00 s2 new soundtrack) and Deeper Conversation by Yuna (local malay artist, she can sing goood~)
- Completed my dreadful, illogical, time dragging, ridiculous assignment at work and now I'm going back to modelling~! And animate it after that. (oh, I'm mostly too animation)
- Been playing Dead Space, super cool game...it's not that scary la~
- Saw quite alot of beautiful babes this month.

I can say that it was okay okay la~ the month. The Bull sure making it interesting. GO OX! muh year!! Mooooo~!!! >0

The Belated Valentine

2009-02-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

I walk into the darkness I belong
Staring up at the night filled with wonders
Suddenly 2 couple walk past me
Luckily I was able to stop in time
But something made me realize about that couple...
They have each other

They are holding hands
They are gigling one another
Their heads connecting as they walk slowly
Saying I love you one another
Even though Valentine's Day just pass
They made it an everyday event

I just realize that I've been trying so hard to find you
whoever you are
I want you, and I need you
Because I'm lonely
I need to know that I can feel alive again
know no one else can compete with you

But who am I kidding
I look at my hands
And they say that I can't find her
I won't find her
She won't hold my hand
Because I'm always too late
Or too far away

I just realize that my road may have finally come to it's end
it's purpose of expanding
I guess I'll just be standing while everyone is walking forward
She'll be walking.
I know you won't hear me say this
But atleast you'll try hearing it from my heart at a distance..
Happy belated Valentine's Day.
And somewhere in an alternate reality, I'm making it an everyday with you.

I wish...

2009-02-12T07:30:00.000-08:00

.......

I am not :perfect , but aiming to be one.

I hurt : when I become the main target and no one else is

I love : Playing games...it has to be fun and creative

I hate : smokers or people who are inconsiderate.

I fear : loosing everyone and I become all by myself

I hear : my computer fan spinning

I cry cried : when I was a little boy, I mean...who doesn't?

I care : for people who cared for me

I always : play games and find ways to entertain myself daily.

I long to : be a well known 3d Artist and be a Director or the CEO of my own game company.And I also long to have a girlfriend.

I listen: to the things which are useful to me

I hide: a lot of thoughts and secrets like any normal people.

I drive : only at night.

I sing : as a backup singer for my church worship team.

I dance : horribly

I write : when I need to remember something

I breathe : the fresh air which is also very nice

I play : World of Warcraft and Warhammer...I know, geeky~

I miss : my 2nd sister (she's in US)

I search : for a worthy girlfriend

I learn :to not make more mistakes in life

I feel : like sleeping because of my aching body

I know : that I'm very unlucky in finding a gf...because I suck at it...I'm always too late.

I succeed : in things which I put effort in doing.

I fail : when I want it to fail

I dream : of another realm which I had a happier life there.

I sleep: enough to get up to work

I wonder : whether she's out there

I want : to play World of Warcraft

I worry : about my health

I have : been gaining alot and now struggling to burn it

I give : my best in what I can do.

I fight : when I'm being provoked

I wait: for my next big break

I need : rejuvenation

I am : humble at heart but too nice for others to abuse it, always getting left out, always too late to grab hold of the things I want the most, always on the bench, always unlucky, a game freak, into hot charismatic girls, bored...

I think: I should start playing

I can’t help the fact that : I make a lot of stupid mistakes

I stay : in my apartment

I smile : with a question of 'why'

I will : make a better me for this year

I should : be playing now

I tag: whoever who wants to do this stupid tag

Get to know yourself

2009-02-11T04:44:00.000-08:00

I just realize what I need to do for this year...It is vital that I do this because I will not be a pathetic useless person who only knows how to stand and do nothing while everthing is taken away from me or leaving me to rot and not knowing my existence or acknowledging who I am...in fact, it won't make a difference if I change...but at least it's for me.

I need to be selfish and think about myself

I need to take whatever I can get

I need to get rid of the unnecessary things

I need to tidy up my life

I need to stop thinking about other people's needs and favors

I need to stop giving

I need to start burning

I need to get rid of my past

I need to be better

I need to be stronger

I need to be more wiser than before

I need to be more humble

I need to be more focus

I need to work harder

I need to... complete myself first.

I need to concentrate on me only this year. I need to.

OMG!! IT'S FINALLY HERE!!! >o< !!

2009-02-01T17:45:00.000-08:00

Today...the 2nd of February...I've become, older...an uncle, an old man.....-___-.

OMG...it's so near!

2009-01-30T21:13:00.000-08:00

It's so near...

it's so near....

what am I gonna do?

what am I gonna do??

just for this once!

Let time move much slower!!

ArrgghH!!

Clock is ticking.... @_@

2009-01-26T18:36:00.000-08:00

Tick Tock ....

tick tock....

tick tock..

Soon...it'll come.

Mister, can you stop moving the time faster? @.@

D&D : Machine Concept Art 1

2009-01-19T23:51:00.001-08:00

This is the concept art 'Machine' for the D&D (Drink & Draw) online. Still waiting for the website to be up and operational, Darren. So...here it is, this is the 1st drawing for the 'Machine' theme. Drew it 1st, scan it and then paint it in photoshop... kinda weak on my photoshop paint.There's another drawing I did for the same theme which I'll do it maybe tomorrow or the next day. >D

I've Been Killing Zombies Lately, How Bout You?

2009-01-18T18:52:00.000-08:00

ahahaha...minor mistake there, suppose to be 'ferociously', not fearlessly...blur adi me. >D

Hahaha...the game screenshot is a mod version, so it's not for real. But I kinda decided to make a short comic out of it. This game is by far good for an online co-op game. Who doesn't like shooting and blowing zombie's head off? It's fun! Yeah, so they used to be humans...but you can't reason with a zombie ,can you? This game you only play one of the 4 survivors to your choosing in a Campaign or a single player mode. In the versus mode, you get to play one of the special zombie characters (except for the witch) and it's fun playing with other players from other places/country. But you need to have Steam in order to play online with others, which means you have to get Original. U get offline you can only play the Single Player where the rest of the player will be controlled by bot , and you can LAN connect with others nearby but need to create a game through the console and connect to the host's IP .Too complicating? Buy the original!...it's fun! >D

What!? A zombie ask me to shoot him! Is there a problem? 0_o
- Johnny_Raven to Dpshk(HK) -

Buy it, Play it... Enjoy It.

A Proper New Year resolution

2009-01-03T17:31:00.000-08:00

Yes, I'm gonna be like some of my friends and make a list of my New YEar's resolution :

- I'm gonna get as many original games as possible
- Work harder to get many increement
- Draw more (gotta practice adi)
- Upgrade my PC and beat Shakeel's PC!
- Get adult clothing (mature looking)
- Loose alot of weight!I'm gonna beat Ben!
- Get more armies for my SPace Marine ( one special set againts Orks >D)
- Meet alot of new friends, girls especially....hot ones.... yeah.
- Join back Ninjutsu?
- Find someone as a gf (must try la hor, it's been 8 years adi)
- Watch alot of Movies
- Save alot of money
- Spend more time with my family =)
- Pray my sister from US comes back home ( get kicked out would be better >D)
- Get a Wii? See la.... to many platform games adi.

Well..that would be all, boy that's long >D.

Enjoy your day!

Horoscope readings?

2009-01-02T19:09:00.000-08:00

Mooooo.......

Visited Eri's blog and I was a little curious about what the horoscope have to say about me and what's gonna happen in this year. So, for your information...I'm an Ox , why am I an OX instead of a tiger? Because I came out early before Chinese New Year, that's why...I was too bored inside my mum's stomache. >D

But to be more specific what kind of an Ox I am :

Johnny Tai your character is an Ox and your element is Wood

THE HARD WORKING OX

Stable, sensible, solid, determined, strong and tenacious, these people have integrity and strength of purpose and are reliable and true to the end. Ox people are hard-working and persistent, they can stick at a task longer and go at it harder than anybody. They believe in themselves and tend to classify almost everything into two basic categories, bad and good (very true). They hold up their high standards as a model and severely judge those who don't aspire to maintain these same ideals( A little bit true).

Probably because of their calm approach to the life, they tend to live to a ripe old age. Oxen make good managers, because of their need for routine and method, as well as their materialism(Yeah Baby!). Ox people are not social or party animals, they tend to be quiet when in a party. Although appears to be tranquil, in fact, Oxens are ponderous but impulsive when angry(That's not true -___-). They are capable of fearsome rages; therefore, it is better not to cross Oxen(ermm...Damn Right!).

Ox people are observant; they have remarkable memories and are good at reporting on absolutely everything they observe. In the home, the Ox is a great guy to have around(Wow). In business, the OX can succeed in the arts,(Yup) a contracting business, or an estate, thanks to their creative nature. And since an Ox is intelligent and good at his hands, he can be a good surgeon as well (don't know about that, I'll give it a try! >D).

Ox people are hard-working and persistent, they can stick at a task longer and go at it harder than anybody. They believe in themselves and tend to classify almost everything into two basic categories, bad and good. They hold up their high standards as a model and severely judge those who don't aspire to maintain these same ideals. Ox people are not social or party animals, they tend to be quiet when in a party. Although appears to be tranquil, in fact, Oxens are ponderous but impulsive when angry. They are capable of fearsome rages; therefore, it is better not to cross an Ox.

Ox people are stubborn and dogmatic, they believe in their decision and will never regret(yeah...I guess so). They are also very close to their families. Disappointedly, Oxens often find that those who are close to them fail to understand them (this has shown alot). Nevertheless, they are patient, and caring and that makes the Oxen the best friend you can ever have (doesn't mean I'm good for hugging). Oxens are very responsible and loyal. Ox people are seldom jealous. But they will be jealous of their rights; and the fidelity of a husband or a wife is one of their rights. They are very family-oriented, conservative and faithful.

Ox Chinese Horoscope 2009

Ox Year Borns: (1901, 1913, 1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997 and 2009)

Famous Ox People: Jim Carrey, Robert Altman, Wayne Rooney, Richard Gere, Charlie Chaplin, Melanie Chisholm, Johann Sebastian Bach, Napoleon Banaparte, Andy Lau and Hans Christian Andersen.

Good Personality Traits: Powerful, Inspiring, Quiet and Good Leaders .
Bad Personality Traits: Conservative, Angry, Unemotional and Ignorant.
Ox’s Compatibility: Rooster, Snake and Rat.

Forecast: According to the Chinese Horoscope for Ox, these people are going to have a balanced year 2009.They are advised to stay away from taking risks in the Year of Ox. Apart from this, the Oxen are advised to avoid any clashes of opinions with their partners, be it in marital life or professional life in 2009.

Chinese Horoscopes 2009 indicates, that the Oxen are going to get many opportunities to rise in their career. They need to change some tactics to excel in their professional life in 2009. Those seeking promotions need to take bold moves this year to get the desired results.

As far as love life for the Oxen is considered in 2009, these people will win the hearts of their loved ones. For married Oxen, the spouses are going to yield immense support this year. However, for many Oxen, betrayal by the spouse can also be foreseen in the year of the cunning and shrewd rat.

Chinese Horoscope for Oxen indicates that the health of these people will be in accordance to their relationships this year. There are chances of their health suffering due to some misunderstandings with their spouse. These people need to take care of their immune system in 2009, as even a small disease can turn out big this year.

Overall, the Year of Ox will bring along really good interpersonal relationships for the Oxen. Whether personal or business relationships, the Oxen are going to have a really cordial time with all around in 2009. This year, the Oxen are advised to be careful while making judgments.

Now, Let's check out my Zodiac sign

Aquarius Horoscope 2009

A typical Aquarius attributes include intense desire to communicate, friendly, intellectual and independent. Get to know yourself better, with the Aquarius Horoscope 2009. We feature weekly and daily Aquarius horoscope forecasts and astrology predictions. We bring together the astrology, horoscope and predictions for Aquarius. Our special feature include Aquarius online predictions, which covers the predictions including love life, family life, friends, career, finances, traveling and health issues. Refer to our free 2009 Aquarius Astrology to foresee your future without spending big bucks on the astrologers, tarot card readers, numerology and occult. Our Aquarius Horoscope 2009 is affirmed by marked astrologers and has been complied with the most authentic information for 2009 Aquarius Horoscope.
Career Horoscope 2009 for Aquarius:

You will work hard to manifest greater visions in your professional life. Work will unfold smoothly and flexibility in your working style will be the key to exploit better career opportunities. Plan an alternate source of income to stabilize your finances. Year 2009 will open the door of fresh opportunities, for those involved in business and employed or unemployed. The 2009 horoscope for Aquarius

indicates that you have the ability to present yourself well and influence others opinion. Your communication skills will help; you make social contacts with the rich and famous. Don't let your associates and people in the close proximity affect your judgment. Look ahead for promotion, appraisal and monetary rewards.
Love Horoscope 2009 for Aquarius:

Love and romance for Aquarius is blossoming and if you are single then get ready to mingle, by the end of this year. Marriage chances are possible and if you are healing a broken heart then new found love will happen soon. Aquarius love forecast 2009, predicts you will learn to express your feelings and enjoy a more comfortable and emotional relation with your spouse. Tensions and arguments with the better half
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WEll, all this are interesting. Some facts seems quite true. But here is what I think. I still don't believe in horoscopes as I don't believe in written facts that says and predicts who you are in the future. God made you and only you because you are a unique individual...you're not categorized or out in the same group. You are you. There's no one else who is just like you. God knows his children, and I would go on with my 2009 with his guidence and blessings.

The Yearly Evaluation

2008-12-31T09:17:00.000-08:00

The New Year is finally here, 2009 has arrived and bye bye to shitty 2008 for me. Oh....almost forgot.

Happy Blessed New Year!

Now as promise, I'm gonna write about my 2008 evaluation and what I'm gonna expect for 2009.

2008:
That year has been my most misreable year for me. I hate that year, it has caused my downfalls and crumpled my life like a piece of paper and just thrown to the side. Nothing great happened in that year, nothing worth remembering except for painful memories. In that year, I learn alot of great deal of reality....of what it really is going on around me. I was never happy in that year although I could still put up a smile.

That year I have alot of people that goes off to far away places and some going to many different paths. Alot of people I'm close to left for a better future. Like my studio manager, my sister, my youth pastor, some of my colleagues. It's like one by one they are peeled off from my life .

I suffered a great deal of pain from a...'close' friend I've been with for 6 years which I have made a mistake to grow too attracted to her. And for that, I paid the price. The prophecy that I received ' A returning thing that I've forgotten' was my pain and decisions which brought my downfall.And it is my fault that I repeated my mistakes for thinking that it'll be different than before. I was gonna make up for my mistakes with her, willing to renew my friendship.... but I was stabbed hard by her for thinking that I had a motive for coming back to her, saying that I cheated her. I then realize she was totally not worth it at all. Made me so frustrated and regretted alot because of her.Last time I didn't blame her but myself for my stupidity, but this time it's different. I've erased her existence in my life, although I do realize that one day we'll bump into each other again.... but that time I won't have the same view of her anymore.I just don't want to see her anymore.

That year has spoiled the look of my appearance. I've gained alot of weight compared to last time.THis is how it is when you're downed, you simple don't give a damn about anything else. I've not been active in martial arts and my regular cycling activities. This has caused my image to look bad right now... and I need to gain back my old self.

That year has caused misery in my work, but I realize that it's never easy in the working life. But just that the work I've done with all my hardwork and effort can just be thrown at the side or re-design because of wanting to have a different look, all of a sudden. Wasted alot of months for some work that I did. And other than that, I've been too nice. I keep willing to agree to help do extra things for the church when I already realize that I'm busy with my work at the studio. But still, my studio...the management is just lousy to me, poor planning and sillines.

That year, I've been cursed by misfortune. I get bad lucks more ofthen than b4.

That year made me realize who my real friends are and now I know who is and who isn't (dun worry Jasmin, you're one of my real crazy friend).

That year I'm lonelier than before.

BUT, I do have some which I appreciate and thankful for :
1. I get to communicate more with Cindy Tey
2. Meet alot of interesting friends.
3. Gotten closer with my colleagues
4. Had an awesome Joint Youth Camp.
5. Didn't get my car banged at all.
6. Got myself an XBOX 360 and a PSP
7. A new attitude after my downfall.
8. Oh, started Warhammer 40 000 boardgame. WAR!

So what am I looking for in 2009, the year of the Ox?

- I'm gonna work harder in my life, rebuild back my image and focus harder in my work. This time I won't give a shit if it's discarded or renewed by someone else. Get closer to the real friends that I know of now. And to finally find a happy life that I've been longing for. Achieve alot of Greatness that is worth remembering and may fortune be cast upon my life and my family.

Have a blessed 2009 everyone. =)

Merry Christmas to Everyone!

2008-12-25T19:30:00.000-08:00

Hey Everyone, Merry Christmas! I hope you enjoy alot on your eve and christmas day with friends and family and get alot of good presents! If you don't like the presents, well it's the thought that counts. On eve I spent my night at TImothy's house because they were having a Christmas eve party. So they invited friends and relatives. I got for Tim's parents a very small christmas tree, looks nice wan leh! Anyway, we did caroling, ate the food (the lamb as always taste soooo good!), had alot of chit chats with my friends and sarah's friends and we end up telling Ghost stories on christmas Eve! >D 2 person scared of driving back but they still went back driving close to each other, funny! So the time hits on midnight and it was Christmas! We gave presents and we pulak go upstairs and watch alot of youtuve nonsense video. I recommend you guys to go youtube and check out 'How to be a Ninja', there are several other different versions made by them so check it out!

On Christmas Day I attended church, sing caroling and give gifts! I got sweets, glowing cross key chain, the joint Youth camp photo frame, and some christmas cards. Couldn't mingle for too long cuz I needed to sent another present to my dear little friend , Jasmin Lim. So I drove there and gave it to her, I made it in time! Cuz she had to go to KLCC with someone so can't be too late. Phew >D. Then later at night I went to my sister's apartment for Christmas, I had to smuggle my dog in to that apartment....not an easy task when there's security people everywhere! Anyway, the dinner was good (left over is for my lunch later >D) and I got good gifts! Oh while I was there, I watch one of my sister's dvd and he is one of my favourite actor...Ryan Reynolds. This movie called 'The Nines' is a must watch movie! It's good, it's so good! It really is a brain-melting dazzling mystery. The writer, the Director and a good performance by Ryan Reynolds did a damn good job in this movie. Go buy and watch it!

And since it's still the christmas season, I embeded a video file of Karen Kong singing Silent night. She's really good , dunno why Malaysian idol kicked her out... they have no idea what they've done. Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone and a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Joint Youth Camp 2008

2008-12-13T05:49:00.000-08:00

Youth Camp was great! 1st time joint camp between GTS & NCA. The traveling was interesting, the dormitary was cool, the games & activities was fun , the time of worship together was super awesome and the words given by Pastor James Foo was marvelous. Had a great time with the NCA guys and we got along really well like we've known each other for a long time. I pray that we'll have another in the future.

Pics and details probably be later.

Cheers, God Bless.

>D

The Greatest Gift from God.

2008-12-03T17:36:00.000-08:00

I was born in this world for a reason, to be part of it. To be part of what God's creation is like, to experience...as I myself am part of that creation. I can't deny his work for what it is. He too told me that this place has alot of temptation, alot of danger, alot of risk, alot of difficulties ....all the barriers that I'll face in my walk to return to him. I did ask him why I was sent here..... it was such a simple word he gave me and also the message was the greatest command I ever receive and obeying right now.

And that word is..... Life.

How I live it was up to me, that's part of the reason why mankind was given the ability to choose and make their own decision. It's true that this world alot of difficulties and tons of evil corruptions are going on. But I can't just close my eyes and pass by all those things. Knowing them is part of what life is supposed to be. Knowing the good, and knowing the bad helps in building one's life in terms of maturity, perspective and knowledge. Books or lecture isn't enough for that, you have to experience it and know what it is. And then comes the decision to take it as part of the lesson in life. This is the daily test he set for us, to see whether we can adapt to this place.

I admit that in the past I was walking blindly without knowing what my path is, until he saved me and made it straighter. And again he told me that same word, that's what is important because it's the greatest gift that anyone here can have in their lives.A birthday gift he has already given when you've set your foot on this world.

How you live is totally up to you, don't let anyone tell you how to live.They can help you in walking better but don't let them pull you to their side. Make your stand firm and as strong as a mighty tower that cannot be shaken. Choices and decisions are all up to you, do not let any other people take it from you and make it up for you. It's your life that God entrusted you with, and he wants to see how you've progress at the end of the road. And do not deny the reality of this world because it is how he has created it to be. Denying the world means that you're denying his great work through men, they are created for a reason.... it is for us and it is the only place we could live in before we proceed on to his place.

Live your life in this world, it's your own road you're walking on.

The Urge to Break Off from Duties

2008-11-30T17:37:00.000-08:00

Fuck....I want to break off from any duty (except for my work) that I'm in right now. Freaking stress with it, one of the duty wants to keep it a secret cuz don't want them to make a big fuss about it. Alot of things need to be done, alot of limitation for a big project, and alot of days need to attend. The other is pushing me alot and I keep forgetting to do some of the duty and some are unusual circumstances. Shit man....as this year nearly end, my days are getting worst than ever.

FUCK IT!! I WANT OUT! I WANT MY ONE LAST FREE TIME MOMENT FOR THIS YEAR!!!!

This year is my worst year of all. I'll write a post about my 2008 evaluation later in this month.

Lol....I'm Dr.Evil/Liew!

2008-11-26T22:34:00.000-08:00

Congratulations Johnny Tai, you are...

Dr Liew of drliew.net

You are such a silly and cartoonish person. You are confident, quick-witted and have a natural sense of humour. Even during the most stressful times, you keep your cool, live by the rules and focus on solving the task at hand. To your friends, you are always that loyal companion standing by their side, cheering them up when they're feeling down. You have virtually no enemies. People simply enjoy having you around.

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

D&D : Character Concept Art

2008-11-23T17:55:00.000-08:00

These are the 2 drawings I did for Drink and Draw in August this year. Theme was character concept. So it was about 2 hours plus I think. We were drawing while drinking, eating and chatting. Quite a fun a event to say, can't wait for this coming thursday!

Flaws of Human Beings

2008-11-21T17:00:00.000-08:00

Nothing in this life satisfy a soul of a human being. Everyone needs everything. Whether it's from food , to the joy of victory and to the need of another companion... they want it all. We are a race of human beings who are too complicated to understand....or maybe too simple and stubborn to change. An individual must have the joy or a satisfaction to complete something within them. But it never ends, it never does. There's no such thing as perfection in every person life as there will always be flaws in them . All their need, all their desire, all their satisfaction and all their emotions.....it's endless. Whether we die , it never stops.

We all need to find that thing we need to fullfill our desire, to complete the small part of our lives.But the most annoying thing is that most of them when they've pulled all their effort to have finally found something, it's not what they want at the end of that expression and they go look for another different thing . The need has a tendency of changing one person's mind from a calm and peaceful mind to a chaotic filled with a lot of uncertainties . There will always be something new, and a hungry pack appears. Those who thinks that they have everything felt like the've already owned the world. Human needs is dangerous if not controlled, it's like a hunger and it changes them.

I just came to realize that most of us are too stubborn to change things in us or unwilling to accept other people's fact but their own. To those who can see both sides in all things are open minded and willing to learn and understand, whether in goodness and in all the bad things. But to those who are one sided .... they are like a rock which soon will pile up and form in to a solid mountain. And it's pointless to try and move a mountain as we are not God himself. It's good to stand on your own opinion and the knowledge that you've gain, but one must also learn to listen to other's. The best way to deal with people who are one sided and who only sticks to their own ideology is to give them the joy and satisfaction of winning the conversation and let them go about in their own ways . It doesn't matter how hard you try, they won't move for you.

There are some human beings who wants to learn a lot of things and there will be some people who judge them for it. Judging them to why they need to learn it or they are unable to perfect that knowledge that they gain. These are the people who thinks that they themselves are the master of that knowledge or only know how to speak angry empty words because it bugs them that the other person know this knowledge. How can we ease their frustration? We can't....no matter how much we try to resolve with them, they are still holding up a knife on your throat. Best way again is to let them linger on with it. They always come up with things which doesn't relate to the topic, but do they care? As long as they can use it on the other person and hurt them, it's all the satisfaction that they need. But for some people, they intend to use the same tactic on them and the fight never ends, it becomes an endless battlefield which sometimes involve a third party or even a stranger in their ridiculous war. And the result is that everyone involved in it are scared from their own stupidity.

There are some who hurt people because they just want to. Because they see a flaw or a weakness in that person and they transform in to a tiger and pounced on that victim. Pointing out a small little detail and use it to their advantage. Why they do it?It's hard to tell... maybe because it bothers them so much or giving in to their emotions to do the thinking. And if those who defends the helpless will be their next target victim, it's like "If you stand in my way, you'll join him/her as well". Some thinks that those who defends them have a motive to get something in return like a reward, a reward meaning something ugly. Not all of them are like that... they just want to help, they just want to lend a hand. But the attacker refuse to believe it and stand by their own opinion. So they let them do or torture that person, as long as the helpless is not hurt, it's okay then.

Companionship, friendship.... it's meaningless if it's not treasured well. We all may find a friend or that special someone, but sometimes it's like a flower petal.... it drops one at a time and it then left with nothing. Sometimes, it breaks so fast... you don't even know how it happen.One can have friendship which is important and fills another part of our life. But a warning would be if they consider you as a close friend, the greatest friend of all....becareful as to anytime they can change their face. Same goes for a companion. He/she maybe the one that you've found.... but not all of them are sure of what they want and which leads to unloyalty or the need to have something different. Nothing last forever unless both of them are still holding each other's hand and it's unbreakable.

These are the only few things and flaws of a human being, I am too like them who have some of these flaws. But I'm pointing these out to make you realize what we are. But try to be open to all things in life, learn to control your emotions and your needs, do not break what you have and learn to treasure all things around you.

I Hate this Part right here....

2008-11-18T17:14:00.000-08:00

1. Do you think you're Hot?
No....I think I'm awesome! >D

2. Upload your favourite picture of you

3. Why do you like that picture?
Because it's the picture of me and the gang being sakai together at starbucks, Taipan. Or maybe it's just me being the only sakai fella >P

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
Last week, my dad bought an itallian pizza...dunno what's the toping but it was really spicy!

5. The last song you listened to?
Pussycat Dolls : I hate this Part

6. What are you doing now besides this?
Playing WOW in the studio while checking blogs.

7. What name would you prefere besides yours?
I did wished for a different name when I was young, but now everyone knows me by Johnny, so I'm keeping it.

People to tag

- Kathryn
- Jen
- Isabel
- Yvonne
- Darren

8. Who is number one?
Someone I've met online, quite a straight forward person with a vast opinion of her own, can be quite harsh but she's good. A hybrid.

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with ?
I dunno...

10. Say something about number five
Cut your hair...

11. How about number four?
Faster do props! >D

12.Who is number two?
A sexy babe from Ipoh... she can really cook very very very delicious food, I want to try! >.<

Bloody Buggers....

2008-11-17T17:26:00.000-08:00

Every morning I always listen to mix.fm radio channel ( my favourite and I love Serena C and also Pietro ) And this morning they were discussing a very interesting topic as for today is actually 'What Bugs you Day'. So I hear a couple of listeners story and I have a few of my own! So here's what I'm gonna do, I'm gonna create a tag entry about this topic and you guys are free to take the tag if I didn't tag you at all.

Rules :
> Just list down 6 things that bugs you(that you're annoyed about) in life or recently happen.
> Tag the next 8 person for this topic
> NO TAGGING BACK! I ain't wanna do this again.

1. Every time I drive on the Federal Highway especially around 8pm, there will always be an idiot with a high beam(especially xenon light) or some cars where one of their car light is not adjusted properly. And they just have to be behind me, I tilt my front mirror upwards and hopefully he get blinded by his own light.

2. Last Week when I was queing in a light at Carrefour to pay for my cereal, milk and a jar of chocolate Nutella (gotta cut down on those). Just before it was my turn, this bitch from the other lane put her basket on my side to ,walk over and took my turn...she cut my line! I went like " Wow.... that's interesting" The cashier was laughing(you're not suppose to laugh u Bangla!) and ppl behind me scolded her. You know what's her reason?? "My dad is impatient, need to be in the hurry now" The dad is talking to a credit card sales guy, seems busy.....fucking bitch.

3. Every morning I walk to the KTM station to go to work (because I live very near to the station). So, there's this construction going on beside my apartment....and everytime I walk past there, some idiot spit out a huge ooze of saliva on the road on the path as I was walking. WTF man!! So I have to cross the other side near the drainage where trash lorries always park. Freakin doesn't make my day.

4. KTM trains are my problem everytime I take it.I know driving is a good option, but parking around KL Sentral is not good at all. The KTM trains breaks down often , and when that happens... the train scheduled to come on the time u wish is canceled. This is worst when the station is packed! The next stop, the train that do come will be full of people that came from KL station. No chance to go in at all! HAve to wait for another stop!! Missed 2 stops and altogether waited for about 45 minutes!

5. This has bug me for quite a long time now, and it's about my friendship with this particular girl whom I've known for 6 and a half years. Well actuallyit's less than that cuz I dissapeared from her for 2 years in between. I admit that there are few times I fall for her during our friendship,she's beautiful, cheerful, good to talk to and caring. I stayed and remain as a friend as always knowing whether I have feelings for her or not. I dissapeared from her is because I couldn't stand being her different from how I knew her in school and having to see her in a relationship with a real jerk(smoker). Recently we got back together as friends again, I thought she was different from then...more mature, open and mindful in things. But I was really wrong, she's still the same...blur, clueless and still can't think for herself. She still loves another type of idiot, a very jealous type. But I didn't want to argue about her 'normal' taste in guys, so I told her that I want a renewed friendship where I will not develop any deeper feelings for her. But guess what? After that discussion, she decided to get a few pointers from a friend instead of her own and came with a conclusion that she felt her friendship got cheated(obviously hinting me). After all this time as I remained as a friend, or for her she considered me as a 'closer friend', she took all of that and slap it at my face.WOW. From then on, I don't give a fuck about her knowing thast it's not worth it anymore being her friend again.Don't worry, there won't be an 'again' the next time we meet. I now this topic will not dissapear from me, but it felt good to let it out.

6. I can't stand anonymous readers that drops by and kick you at the ass or bugs my favourite blogger, Cindy. WTF man, what's that all about? Do they have a life at all?? And not including the link so that I can have a real discussion with that person, what a fucking chickens. And comment on things which are not that important or unrelated , it's like they have real serious issues for minor things. And some of them are normaly childish idiots, I reckon is some of the forum readers in Low yat... so very manglish. Get a life or just suffer!

Ok, the people I tag :
1. Yvonne
2. Darren
3. Kathryn
4. Jen
5. Carrie
6. Rachel
7. Christopher
8. To anyone who want's to do this tag.

Happy tagging.

A Different kind of Life..

2008-11-13T20:05:00.000-08:00

Always wonder what it'll be like in a different world. How would your life be in that place? Would it actually be better than the one you have right now? Or is it worst than what you're enjoying right now?

I always dream or have short glimpse of vision on my head of how my life would be in a different place. It's like for some situation I would be doing that thing that I couldn't do here like playing an awesome guitar or piano or I would have been a famous guy in school and stuff like that. But that's all mind playing... but who knows, there is an alternate world out there where we're in it playing a different life.Think of it that God create a mass duplicate of us and each of those duplicates are in a different kind of world in adifferent kind of life. But don't pay too much attention to this part, don't want to confuse you too much.

Everyday we strive to perfect our life, to live a life full of joy and excitement as much as possible with many difficulties along the way. It's somehow whether I'm in a different world or time, it's never that easy. I don't really need God to tell me this as he already know I have understood that.

I know that the fates are toying with my life, giving me a bad time everyday and give a little luck to experience the joy. Somehow, it is getting tiring and letting them do whatever they want to my life like a cursed vodoo doll. It doesn't matter how much I try to prevent it, they got pins stuck on me already.

Oh, I have Wrath of the Lich King expansion for World of Warcraft and it's awesome! Death Knight class is superb! Can't wait to go back home and play it again! Oh, if anyone is interested I have 2 free 10 day trial account for you guys to try it out! >)

Madagascar 2 night Part 2

2008-11-13T01:42:00.000-08:00

Here are the extra pics from the Madagascar 2 premiere night taken using Cindy's camera ( Not bad also lehh, good quality ) You can check out her post too for this night: http://www.jadezheng.com/2008/11/so-cool-u-gotta-say-it-twice.html

She's almost as tall as me, very rare to find girls who is around my height >P.

Me with the girls : Cindy, Me, Eri and Voo

Cindy , Me and Harry.

So , those of you who have not watch it yet....GO AND WATCH NOW! It's very good actually...even my friend Tim said Madagascar 2 rawks!!

Well..that's it for this post >D

Brand New Tag!

2008-11-10T17:20:00.000-08:00

I bored. Me do tag. Tag makes my boring hours busy. Busy is good. Good means Happy. +)

Rulez : do not copy answers
tag questions must be 100% the same
tag 10 people after doing tag
no tagging back

People I tag without mercy >D :
1. Kathryn(hehe..)
2. Jen
3. Rachel
4. Jasmin Lim
5. Cia Ee
6. Lillien Siew
7. Cindy Tey
8. Jasmine Cheong
9. Jamie Yong
10. Yvonne

How you know 1?
In the world wide web....serious!I think it was through internet but I think she added me 1st >D. Until now I still have not met her yet(Hey, we gotta meet up...it's been too long!) . We just chat in msn or check out each other's blog.

What would you do if you never meet 2?
actually...I've not met her yet. Maybe soon though then go dating and can belanja her makan =). I want teriyaki chicken! +D

What would u do if 3&4 dated u?
Hmm..interesting :
3(Rachel) We'll be having pizza at my place where we can play alot of Xbox Games and give her tips to how to pass her semester, interested? >D
4(Jasmin) Have a superb 'rocking' night! With tons of Java Chip!!

Would 5&6 make a good couple?
I wouldn't mind seeing it, that would be an interesting sight >D

do u think 7 is attractive?
Wow,..I placed her at the right number. Ofcourse she is!! She's superbly hot! And she deserves to be the Malaysian Dreamgirl! =)

Do u know anything about 8’s family?
Ermmm.....I only know that her sister Maggie is from my school and she has a Hong Kong actress name.

Tell me something about 9
Childhood friends....I think since std 5 till form 5 then after that she cabut pergi Ipoh....ape lerrr -___-

What is 1’s favourite past time?
Interesting Question, I've yet to discover that. I think my guess would be listening to music and singing. >D(I main bantai saje)

What language does 2 speaks?
English, Cantonese , Mandarin, I think Hokkien also and ofcourse Bahasa (Am I close? Or do u know hakka ? >P )

Who is 3 going out with?
Dunno.... one of her little dolls I think.

How old is 4?
She's as fierce and hot as a Dragon, so go figure what year is that >D.

When was the last time u talked to 5?
.........if chat in person, since college time. MSN chat..few months back. I gotta catch up -__-"

Who is 6 favourite singer?
...............I dunno.

Would you date 7?
If I get the chance and she accepts, Yes. Maybe one day that will come =\

Is 8 single?
She should be.

What is 9 last name?
Pui (can remember lerrr...I so keng)

Would you consider being in a relationship with 1?
If I'm more to wealth, why not. Entrepreneurs~

Which school does 2 go to?
Errrrrr........ I dunno, a school somewhere in Ipoh >D

What do you like about 3?
She plays video games and she has a vast opinion in terms of Politics

Do you know 4 favourite clothing attire?
Short silky dress! Bow chiqa wow wow! >D

What's 5 like in person?
Short & Hyper.

Ever dated with 6?
Even if I did...my ear plucks won't be enough for the night. (Just kidding! >D)

What do you share in common with 7?
We blog...ahaha. But she is more well known than me.

When is 8's birthday?
Ahahaha....hahahaha....haha...errrrr..... I dunno >_<"

Ever wanted to say something to 9?
Had a crush on u once when we were young, but then being a friend seems okay =). But I still like you though. Good luck in your,......studies!

What's your relationship with 10?
College mate, class mate , colleague.....the 3Cs.

Night of Madagascar 2 premiere!

2008-11-05T05:55:00.000-08:00

Last night I had a blast at Mid Valley, watched Madagascar 2 with christopher , his friend and Tim. If u had read the old post about the Madagascar competition, well...here I am. I had my ticket, met up with Cindy, snap some photos together and went in and enjoy the show!Still waiting for the rest of the photos from Cindy. Post it up, Cindy!I wanna see! >D

The movie is good, really good. Alot of funny scenes especially the penguins! Ahaha...love their hijaking, pure genius and very strategize!And Mort (furry little cute guy) was all weird and scary!

From a 3d Artist perspective of the show, I think the render of the environment is good. I was quite attracted to the backdrop composition , the environment which they manage to capture the feel of Africa but a little more of paradise looking. Their animation is as cartoonishly funny as always and the mood and lighting (Vray) and all is great. Modelling I can tell is not much , just alot of duplicationg and project different sets of animation for the back characters. The environment model I can tell are quite a few like the sligshot take off, the paradise in Africa, the plains, the crash site, the jungle of Africa , the beach, and the Volcano.This number for an animation is considered as a good amount and they did a good job on the details and the usage of good specular map on the environment.

Rating >>>> 4/5

Story could still be interesting >P.

Cindy and ...Voon, I think...ahaha, and the far right is Eri. We're all bloggers btw but that's not important. What's important is that I had a great time watching Madagascar 2 and get to snap photos with Cindy! 1st Malaysian Dreamgilr weh! And I've been following her blog for almost 2 years now.

Feels really great to be next to her , ahaha!Remember my name ar!

His name is Dalzarh, Essence of Corruption.

2008-11-03T23:47:00.000-08:00

Got bored...so just post my old sketch I did last time.. I'll post the coloured version in marker soon. So I'll just entertain u guys with this drawing of mine.

Ever wondered a 3d Artist like me could draw a fine piece of concept?It's understandable since I've only been building 3d objects and animate character in a computer. Well, for some of you would know that I do, for those who don't know that yet....

Tadaaaaaa~

I have the skills with the pencil too. >P

BUrn wallet!! BURNN!!!!!

2008-10-28T18:22:00.000-07:00

So many games are coming out this month and next month Wrath of the Lich king (World of Warcraft expansion) Is coming out too! And I have to pay for the youth camp fees for RM190!!!@%$!!

List of things to buy :
1. Fallout 3 Original Rm100+
2.Dead Space Original RM140
3. Silent Hill Pirated Rm15
4. Fable 2 .......Original/Pirated
5.Command and Conquer Red Alert 3..... haven't decided
6. Wrath of the Lich King (have to be ori) Rm90 I think
7. Camp fees Rm190

And still more to come in the next following weeks or months.

Sigh, my wallet is gonna go on fire. Summore I've got alot of shit load of stuff to do x_x , still gotta finish my space marine painting, a game document , and some few works for the camp. If only that I won RM1 mil without knowing that I've join anything!I want that now!! >( .

Another Survey from Ms.BusyGirl(s**y)

2008-10-21T07:15:00.000-07:00

RULE: Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits / things / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.NO TAG backs!

Here goes :

1. I'm Mr.Hillarious.

2. I can't sleep if someone is snoaring....very annoying >\

3.I can't sleep in a room which is toooooo quiet ( like no noise at all!)

4.I must play games everyday...if not my spirit will die +(

5. I have this hyper level of sakainess in me...when I'm high. Timothy and my Boss would know this

6. I like coffee.

7. I behave crazily sometimes when the time is right.

8. I've got too many list of hobbies to do =_=

9. I love ANGELINA JOLIE!!!

10. I have a habit of shaking my leg

11. I may be nice, sometimes I pretend to be =).

12. Raven is my symbol

13. I love peanut Pancake.

14. I like hot babes, I can't deny it. Even if I don't say it...Jasmin will...sigh -_-

15. I have a quiet empty side and I have a crazy hyper side of me.

TAG TAG TAG!!

1. Kathryn

2.Jamie Yong

3. Pearly Yuen

4. Phui Ping

5.Christopher

6. Lillien

7. Cia Ee

8. Yvonne

9. Cindy

10. Darren

Tag from Ms.Busy Girl(S**Y) >)

2008-10-21T00:52:00.001-07:00

1. What is the relationship of you and her/him?
- Ms.BusyGirl? muh Crazy friend!

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
- a. Open Minded
b. Pretty lar (I leveled down ar,leveled down)
c. Speaks with her mind and a touch of spices from the heart (so chunted)
d. So busy ( Chillax lerr , babe >\)
c. Owes me a free time to get Java Chip.

3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
- Pointing out an empty car park spot near our yum cha place -_-.

4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
- .............75% eheem eheem. I'm 55%!!

5. If she/he become your lover, you will..

- Be a good boyfriend lerr... right? Nono...be a CRAZY boyfriend!I'll make her laught till she drop on my chest, fui sehhhH~!!! >D

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..

- errrrrr.....surrender? Cannot fight her lerr, duwan... I dun hurt girls...especially this one cuz can never know the old Jasmin may come back and belasah me >.< .

7. If she/he become your lover, she has to improve on..

- Ehehehe..... clothing wear needs to be sexier everytime we go out and make free time, Muahahahah!!Can manage? ;)

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..

- Hmmmmmm.....I wonder why...maybe because I gave her too many nicknames that's why. But I like small eyes & Ms.BusyGirl(s**y), how? =(

9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
-Wahhh...this is like the 'golden' question man.... she tagging me this survey means she's interested to know *thank u~* . If I mention the babes wearing the fireman hat in Salt Shaker(Ying Yang Twins) >D ...u know what I mean,babe!

10. The overall impression of her/him is..
- The ever going Ee Min.

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
- that's Johnny Tai .....that's it.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
- Black & White

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
-Too nice to people and making stupid mistakes.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
- Hmmm....I just want to be someone new. Still suffering from a crumpled life now...but I want to tear my way out and reborn again. How many times would God renew me?

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
- Thanks for being my friend, now...get me a PS3...with original games~. >D

Ten people to tag :

Cindy (try la)

Yvonne

Diana

Ringo

Cia Ee

Lillien Siew

Phui Ping

Kathryn

Jasmine Cheong

Pek Haane

Who is no.2 having a relationship with?

- Someone from her church I think.

No.3 a male or a female?
- Female,girl, hot babe...I'm sure of it =)

If no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing?
- Hmmm....that would be interesting, I wanna see that.

How about no.5 and 8?
-Ermm.....Cia Ee wouldn't mind, I'm not sure about Kathryn cuz she's all about the money. If there's money, there's love (her perception)

What is no.1 studying about?
- Contemporary arts. I can remember lerrr ;)

Is no.4 single?
- I'm not too sure.

Say something about no.6.
- Lillien ar? Long time adi never chat with her. But she quite noisy lorr...very straight forward girl. Dunno whether she got 1 or 2 wives...or more than that =_=, she dun like me.... *sob*

I like to Move it! Move it!!!

2008-10-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

Johnny is gonna try his best to get the tickets to watch the premiere of............*drum rolls*

here's the banner!

Just incase you couldn't read the black words on the banner:
tickets collection from the NUffnang booth starts at 7.30pm
and will close at 8.15pm. There will also be security check
to prevent any form of electronic devices being brought into
the hall. THere will be a counter for you to deposit your devices
which you can claim after the screening.

Ohhh yeahh~!! I like to move it!! Move it!!

So Cindy/Miss Jade Z is giving away 30 tickets(15 pairs) ,2 tickets for each who gets it. So which means u can bring a friend along to watch Madagascar 2 and get to watch it with her! She's the 1st Malaysian Dreamgirl lehh, worth it man!

Oh by the way...I'll be getting AN extra ticket, if lar. SO if anyone wants to tag along just sms me before I con someone and sell it to them for RM11 .... >) heheheh.

here's the link to her blog! click on the pic :

Pretty lehh...now you know why she's the 1st Malaysian Dreamgirl, all the more reason you should watch Madagascar 2 Escape 2 Africa with her. If the pic doesn't work, try this http://www.jadezheng.com

Now,all I need to do is to blog about this particular question : what ANIMAL would you love your boyfriend OR girlfriend to be, in BED.

Oh, sounds kinky.This is that they pretend to be ,right? I'm single but I can just imagine that I have one la, kay?All the best!

I would want my girlfriend to be a pussyca... I mean a Cat, small cat.Yeah...that's right, a SMALL Cat. Now why out of all in the animal kingdom would I choose a small cat? Because they are cute, very manja(always use body to stroke), gullible(but surely my gf is not la) & fierce (meow~). If my girlfriend can be like that, I'll keep her forever lehh (have to make sure her nails not long, can be fierce...but not too fierce). Comfortable lehh to sleep with a girl who pretends to be a cat, alot of excitement....the Kingdom Come!*from Madagascar song* I like to Move it! Move it!!

OMG!What the hell are you doing there??

I feel Numb.

2008-10-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

I feel numb because I'm not sure what I'm doing now. I can't seem to be feeling any excitement for the past few months, nothing to look forward to.... even that I take up some new hobbies or play the latest games, I still feel numb...

I thought I could recover and start it off well with my so-called 'new life' of mine. But the same essence still remains, emptiness.I don't need a comparison of other person's emptiness feelings, I don't give a fuck about it. I feel like I don't really care about what's gonna happen to me. Either God loves me or toys with my fate, I couldn't care less.

How am I suppose to move?

Holidays~

2008-09-28T23:34:00.001-07:00

Woooo!! This week only work a few days only! Thanks to Hari Raya! hahaha. My boss and 5 of my other colleagues are back at their kampung. So only12 ppl around.

Now the big question is, what am I gonna do during the holidays? 0_0 *blink blink*

Berbuka Puasa~!!!! >D

2008-09-25T18:17:00.000-07:00

The title doesn't mean that I tengah puasa , my boss and few of my colleagues are. So on wednesday after work, my boss (managing director of the studio) brought us to this buffet (forgot wat's the name of the place adi) in Meridian Hotel( one of the twin hotel beside KL sentral). Why there? Because it's near at our work place (duh).... ANYWAY, there was alot of people heading up to the buffet and we couldn't take the lift. So we.. as semangat as always walk all the way up to the....ground floor ( the lift that we're at is P3) and it was a good warm up for our stomachs.When we reached there, I wouldn't say that the hotel looks great but it's errr......oklar~, it is my 2nd time there.

So back to the feast, BUKA ADI!!!

Most of the malays enjoying their food, alot of people leh... because this buffet got alot of variety.
So if any of you have not eaten, please.....just bare for awhile la >D (Cindy, if you're reading this post and see some delicious food that you love, please forgive me... atleast the pic is not as clear as yours! So oklarr, right?>D )

I like to call it, the Fountains of Sweet Pleasure ( sounds erotic, but that's how it feels when u eat the brownies, marshmellows and strawberries with all these chocolates!! >D)

Close your eyes if you've not eaten yet.

Cooking the spaghetti sause
CHEESE!!! Many kinds of cheese! I like the blue cheese especially ( Thanks to my good friend, Timothy Wong)
Chris and Yvonne enjoying their meal, and the rest of the studio gang behind. Oh, forgot to mention....our boss booked this private room for us, VIP~!. Atleast the room can fit 20+ ppl inside, get good services as well (I meant by taking the plates away, refill water, change forks & knives, change napkins...that's all). far right side being cropped off(sorry dude) is Jay who had about 3-4 rounds of minimum carbs and alot of greens and protein foods.
The 2 fellas waiting for their Ice Cream. Oh, Daniel is from South Korea and he eats alot compared to all of us. Haw is Malaysia jus FYI.
Ice cream toppings... wow.
Daniel out there again to get more food.
Ben and Yvonne folding napkins to....I dunno what it is that the've fold.
And that's Shern who came 2nd in the eating-as-much-as-u-can competition. And the malay guy behind there is my boss talking to my colleagues. This was 2 hours later .

let's see the results :

1st. Daniel - 5 rounds ...some each 2 plates, full amount ...ANd he is still freakin skinny!He's like
Christopher Yuen!
2nd. Shern- 5 rounds... 1 plate each with moderate amount, this guy also skinny....age 27 and still have high metabolism >\.

then the rest I dunno.
Ben took quite alot of cheese because he loves~ cheese. I can't take too much because later jelat.
Yvonne took alot of sweet stuff, she said she's gonna get sugar high...pfft.
Chris..erm, quite moderate amount I guess.
I myself had about 5 rounds also, but I took small portion each ( diet lehh~) . But for my opinion about the buffet there is :

IS DAMN BLOODY FUCKING SUPERBLY GOOD & CONVENIENT!!!

ehemm....well, that's all then. Enjoy your meals, ya? >D

The Saw

2008-09-21T23:53:00.000-07:00

Sam is a typical lumber jack who's trying to earn a living by cutting down trees.

One day the supplier wants him to speed up the process because the amount of trees he has delivered is not good enough.So they ask Sam to cut down 3 trees a day.

Sam knew that the task was impossible, but he has to try.And he needs a new saw

So he went down to the town to upgrade his saw to a better one.The seller at the handy shop showed him and said that it's the latest and the best tool to cut down trees. So ofcourse, Sam bought it.Bigger than his one.

The next day he work on the trees with his new saw in the morning. But, at the end of the day....he was not able to cut down the 1st tree . So he thought that maybe tomorrow he'll get up early and try cut finish all 3 trees.

So he did that, he woke up around 5.30 in the morning and get started. He gave his best..he did all he could,but at the end of the day he still was not able to cut down another 1st tree.

In his mind he thought that this saw is giving him a hard time, and it looks really blunt.Not giving him much help in cutting.

So he took it back to the shop on the next day and he told the seller that he had a lot of difficulty cutting the 1st tree with the one he bought.

The seller was confused as to how that could happen, he asked Sam to handover the saw to inspect.

He turned on the master control lever.

Then came a loud motor rumbling noise.

Sam then ask the seller " What's that noise?" 0_0

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Ahahahah....

I got this joke from Mike Constantine who came to my church last Sunday and preach . He told about this part and I couldn't stop laughing! Although the early part I made it up abit because I forgot that part. But he is a good speaker, can come up with a good joke.

I'll be attending the 'No Compromise' event and the speaker is Mike Constantine! Can't wait to hear more jokes from him, but also ofcourse to listen to what he has to deliver from the word of god. Can't Wait! >D

Soulja Boy? AHAhhaHAHAHAHAhHWHAHahHAHAhAHAHHA!!!....ehemm welcome,yo...

2008-09-21T20:27:00.000-07:00

Wow.....soulja boy visited my blog, must be getting famous >D.

Lol, this is just too hillarious.

But hey, Anyone is welcome to drop by my blog , right? Even soulja boy! But when it comes to leaving a comment, he's just plain weird..why the rapping?. Then again, can never know whether he is the real deal or not. If he is, then a proof is needed.

YOUUU!!...funny when I did that. >D

Dark Studio

2008-09-18T18:43:00.000-07:00

I like my studio when it's dark, normaly that happens when it's raining outside. Now it's raining in the morning ....ahhhhh, so peaceful. I find it very comfortable working in a dark place and the only light I can focus on is my monitor. It feels like I'm the only person working here, a sense of peace.

I know Yvonne probably don't like it, but she got Chri's lamp...so no biggie in that. I guess for me, I'm too used to being in a dark. But hey, different people have different ways of doing their job.... if only my director can understand that. Knowing by now, I think he nows what I'm writing...haha.

Gotta go. >)

Tagged by the SHY >)

2008-09-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

Iseehhh, oklarrr....I kesian the girl who asked me to do the tag lerr =.= . I do the tag la, kay? Kuai arrrr..... dun get angry arrr~

Instructions : Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question,make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1.at what age do you wish to marry?
Don't talk about age 1st, let me find the girl then only we settle about that one later la~

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
I may fall , but atleast I'm falling for her. Even though my life could crumble because of this country, but I will not fall but stand to be able to hold your hands and say "I will still love you for as long as I still have my soul"

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Hmm... tough one, it would be....Jasmin, Cindy.... one left is open to any who wants to be stranded with me on a desert island :D

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most and with whom ?
San Francisco, California hopefully with the person I married to...stay there and have the American dream

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To be rich and a well recognize Director in the gaming industry

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
NO!!! I will live by Katryn's words... we need Money!Especially in this shitty place.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my dream.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Store 50% of it and the rest..... spend on wealthy things with my gf ( if I get one) and have a good life!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Why not? It's someone that I love ,right? But I need to make sure that she feels the same way too.... blurting those words out could mean 2 things that would happen next, okay.

10. List out the good points of the person who tagged you.
- Ermmm...smiles alot
- she got such a BIG family that I wonder how will she manage her kids ...and husbands. tsk tsk tsk.
- she's nice .. :D

11. What am I doing now?
what else would I be doing ? -.-"

13. What is your ambition?
I'm already in my ambition >)

14. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
bitchy for one...and not being honest to me when she has my trust.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Family and friends
- Life
- Games
- My job
- my future.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
I only shop when I need to and that's like twice a year.

17. What do you see when you look into a mirror?
chubbiness... (-.-)

18. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
people who don't mind listening.

19. What do you like about this person who tagged you?
she's nice :D

20. What's your definition of love?
That there is no true love here, it has become a myth for this era... (and I'm not talking about God's love or Family love....it's something that completes you)

peeps i tag

- Jasmin
- Lillien
- Yvonne
- Darren
-Cia Ee
- kathryn ( if she's reading this)
- *OPEN SLOT*

3D Artwork no.1 : 3D Valley.

2008-09-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

Ahaha...I guess, I've never posted my works at all. THis will be my 1st and I'll keep it up ofcourse. What I do in my studio is that I'm a 3d Artist capable of doing 3d Environment, character model & animation, some other small things and also help out in concepts. So, in a way...I don't have a fix position. Few months back I was working on 3d Environment for the levels ( can't show you the real one ofcourse, it's P&C) , then later I was in character animation for the main character and the side characters as well. Now currently working on the cutscenes. I do hope that I get back to Environment design cuz I miss doing it, so fun. >.<

The pic above is the sample of a 3d Modeled valley that I did today during my spare time. It's not part of my project, ahaha...just my own. The program I used is an open source 3D sculpting software which allows me to sculpt terrain easily compared to 3d Max. But ofcourse... the texture quality needs to be very very high ( talking about a texture which is about 4800x6800 mega pixels here). Here's the steps

Build up the mesh (3d polygon) by sculpting.

Refining the details...

Next we add in the colors and the texures. This is done by painting it on the mesh, that's why this software is an awesome tool for sculpting terrain.

Defining the textures and the mood.

Ahaha...lens flare is not by me, the program generates it.

Next we add the fog ..

Pretty much done here...just adding more colors to the bottom ground and checking the perspective.

Checking more details of the texture and we're done....it becomes like the 1st pic above!

Now, this software my studio is not using... we did try it out but it's not suitable for our engine because the output of the mesh is just too heavy. But this is fun for portfolio purposes >D. I'll try post up more of my works.

Why do I Cry?

2008-09-11T06:37:00.000-07:00

I was just reminiscing about my past, evaluating my life... I just realize that I've been trying to attain something, that I can never have in my life.

Why do I cry? Because I will always accept the fact , despite that my parents still love me and some of my friends will still be there for me....I will always accept the fact that in my heart... I'm still lonely.

I cry because I can never attain real love.The only element to fill me. I tried to find it...but it struck me back twice causing me to bleed on the floor, in to a state of coma. Is that how love is? Being a nice & a good guy doesn't do good for me, doesn't work on them too...they care less about it.I'm sick and tired of people keep telling me that I'll be able to find someone 'one day', I've been hearing that crap for too long till it begins to annoy me.

Why do I cry? Because I've been hurt so many times....although I may hide it with a smile, but I can't hide the wounds.

Now it has left me in a state that I couldn't care less about how my life is gonna go, whatever God has for me or gonna throw some trash for me to deal with..... I'm just gonna have to pass.

I don't have time for it...

Because I'm just too busy crying about my crumpled paper life.

What happened on Merdeka Day!!!?? 0_0

2008-09-07T18:20:00.000-07:00

Chill la, nothing bad happened at the parade...just that I didn't attend. But on that day, a few of us at church decided to have a trip down to PD to have.....yup, that's right.... a barbeque night! It's not crazy, it's just fun.... it's what older youth do.

So anyway, 14 ppl were on this trip including me... we weren't there in the morning. As how goodie goodie we are, we left after church around 4.30pm :) . My car and Mellissa's car, we parked at Samantha's place cuz we only need 3 big cars to go there.I was in Tim's... Mum's car. Brought along my PSP just incase but it seem that I was the only one with the PSP ( I thought Chris and Kevin would bring along too, pfft..) On the way to PD, we had a little snack... one of my favourite snack that I ate was fried pork intestine!! :D... it taste sooooo goood!!U guys should try it!!

Almost 6pm, we've reached our destination, a resort

Ahahaha....maybe the cows stole the 'O'.

Jim's dad bought one of the room here , so lucky for us! THis place looks nice...neat to say.They have all kinds of facility including the pool, tennis court, football sand court, a very small basketball court and rock climbing.

We unpacked our stuff and head up to the room. One strange thing we noticed that in the lift, the button no. 7 is always on... we all thought that the lift wanted us to go there or something. But we are not so adventurous or willing to spoil our night...so, we just head to our 3rd floor =..= .

We started exploring the room, not too bad actually...2 rooms , 2 bathrooms and a hall connected to the kitchen, oh...and a balcony ofcourse.
We chage our clothes and headed down to the beach where the fun even begins.
Beautiful, isn't it? >)
Settling down on the beach and preparing the fire pit! >D

I was trying to enjoy myself by posing very very silly on the beach, but sometimes it's difficult when there's some people who just likes to be part of the silliness. >\

Leg unity! Sam with the only red toe nail >D.

We were playing so much and yet they're still not done >D.

Jonston had this idea from a friend that you can make sandballs, he thought us how and we gathered them together in a circle.....with a stick in the middle (I have no idea what the stick is for). But we didn't use them to throw at each other....if we did, the girls would loose....or maybe the guys would loose because of the number of girls that attended .

Oh, we started building our own stuff too!Jon was building a....wall. Sam built a heart with so perfect circle around it. Pearly imprinted her name. Mel....erm....cake? Box? Jim built a man which he killed him in the end and Kiat Yee.....hmm, forgot what she built adi, should be a sand castle i think.

I build my own giant name so that the plane could see..... but there's no point to that. >\
"The cops pulled me over for carrying these gunz!" A phrase from one of my T-Shirt >D

Ok, The night came and we realized that the fire pit we built at the beach is not bright enough to lit up the place. The Beach was so dark!SO, we decided to transfer up to where light can be shun! Tim drove the car nearer to on his car lights (pro man, dunno how he maneuver among the trees)

Once we've set up all....We started cooking!

We've cooked lots of BBQ chicken, sausages, hams, burgers and even...potatoes?
Brought alot of drinks and water to clean up.

Wahhh lahh!!

Woooo!

Timothy Wong, the Holy Chef.

Oh gosh...

Anyway, We ate and ate and ate until the time reached...10pm I think or was it 10.30pm. We packed up and clean the place and head back to our room. We bathed and chilled down, and had some leftover burgers for supper (Yeah...we ate alot actually, summore got snacks worr!!@_@)

Few guys played some card game while I watched a Reaper(TV series) in my PSP, played Crisis core for about 30 mins. Then someone brought a board game which had us playing till 4am!Heard of Pictionary? It's a sort of a fun game where u need 2-3 ppl for each group to play. One person needs to draw while the rest guess what is it that the person is drawing. It's somehow difficult for some cuz you have no idea how to tell that word in a drawing >.< . On that night....Kevin, Tim and Jon won the game and claimed themselves champions (Actually...Sam and Sarah won a few times but they didn't read the rules properly, ahahah) Woke up few hours later, we packed our things and head back to....PJ to makan for lunch. The place we ate have the most delicious BBQ chicken rice but it's also super fattening as well (gosh, u should see the fats man...it's like big huge jelly of sweetness!)

Guess what? We head back to Sam's place where my car is at and played more of Pictionary ( Have we gone insane!? We didn't get enough sleep and we are willing to crack our heads more!)
But this time....Sam, Sarah and Pearly won the Pictionary game. Should have been twice but the 1st didn't count cuz they played a not very clear rules game >P. Now we have 2 pictionary group champs.

Clarification

2008-08-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

Knowing me....I like to clarify things on the spot, whether they like it or not.But, doesn't mean I'm the type who would leak out secrets, that would untie the bag...no, not me.

I'm like John Cena,if there's a real problem...then we'll settle it 'Right here Right Now'.

>>Now I'm gonna clarify things that's been bugging me for a long time<<

I'm honest in what I say, but ofcourse a white lie or a bluff doesn't hurt.

Basically, it's fine to get teased at sometimes, like a few times a day or maybe one or 2 days a week. But I don't enjoy being the main topic of a joke and get teased and laughed at, laughing at somethings which are untrue....oh yeah, it's fun...it's just a joke. hehe....but too much is too fucking annoying. I smile and pretend to laugh along, but pisses me off inside... alot.

I don't like people who ask stupid questions sometimes, like real 'stupid' questions.

I don't like people who thinks they can drive and fly their car so well and they don't consider the safety of the passengers. No matter how tough or fast the car may be.....SHIT HAPPENS in accidents.

I dislike slowpokes sometime who are just ridiculously slow or for the sake of stalling the time..

I don't like very egoistic people, annoys me sometimes..

I don't like stupid interruptions when I'm in the middle of something....it's annoying.

I don't enjoy threats or intimidation...fucking hell pisses me off .

I'm not interested on knowing the bad side of a person or how bad they can be, I don't give a crap about it. If they tell that to me, it's an intimidation to me and I dislike it very much...

If I'm a friend...I'm a friend, I bloody hell don't CHEAT on the friendship and me coming back as a friend based on a motive is NEVER my style of making friends. THis seriously pisses me off.

I don't like people loosing their cool at me when they don't tell the reason, or expecting me to crack the message...I ain't a code breaker,I ain't perfect, I ain't you. Don't be a chicken to tell a straight reason, you don't have to tell it in front of others....you can just have to tell it straight to me.

I bloody hell do always judge myself 1st before judging others, ...but I don't always judge people all the time and I don't simply do it. I make sure of that.So don't say I never done so and don't say that I simply judge people.I do it if I have a reason.

I don't light the match to start the fire ... if I have done so, tell me...then I'll try to put it out.

and I ain't a hulk when I'm angry...If I did, I would have died of hypertension. Chillaxing is the way to go in everything.

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If you do not know most of this, then you do not know me well at all... don't claim that you do. I get pissed at people who thinks they know me....even a friend or a 'close friend',

This is only a a few part of me... that I would let you know, to clarify things.I ain't a megazine which you can read it easily...I'm a thick hard cover book that a lot of things I don't reveal about myself.

1st week of August

2008-08-12T09:39:00.000-07:00

Yo...sorry sorry, been awhile since I last posted something.

Well, alot of things happened since PC fair. Boy, I gotta tell ya...it was like a roller coaster ride and not knowing what's gonna come to ya, so thrilling~. Let's see now. Oh, I've forgot to mention that Yvonne has joined my company (not mine but Yvonne keeps saying that)and she's doing well...I hope. It'll be a month before I could see some hair pulling action from her.

On Wednesday I attended the Drink & Draw event in TGI Fridays. This event is official where artist from everywhere gather and meet up to Drink (and eat actually),draws ,chatting, sharing some ideas and stuff like that. So, it's the 2nd time...not bad. This gathering involves alot of ex-classmates of mine in college and a few guys from Yvonne's old work place which includes the very talented Milx. Had a great time , able to catch up with old classmates.So it's kind of a small group.I'll update on that later.

Hmmm... oh... my work assignment has changed from level design to 'fixing' character animation which basically fixing the main character's animation done by some other people. Kinda cool I guess, but alot more fixing needs to be done.

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[Lesson tips]
Arguments are like advanced mathematical questions, it's hard to answer sometimes, most probably you can't solve it....can't find the solution.Sometimes the best way you gotta do is to just cut out that question , throw it to the trash can and move on to the next one... why so? Because it's pointless to crack your head up to try and solve it.Probability you'll get a correct answer is slim .So kids, if you get into an argument, just trash it... best way to move on... no point continuing when you've tried your best.Whatever happens after that is up to you guys. =)
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Oh..btw, met up with Eddy Leow. Eddy Leow is my long time best friend since primary school. The only real person which I would consider as my great friend...whether through ups and downs...we still stand side by side last time and still remain as friends. Cheers dude, hope you're doing well in your work place...haha.

PC Fair 2008

2008-08-03T23:49:00.000-07:00

Went to PC fair on Saturday with my colleagues, had a great time. Yeah, that's all about it.

Tagged -_-

2008-08-01T01:39:00.000-07:00

Yawnnnn.... having a dull life and I have to do this tag pulak (Thanks, Ciaee -_-)

Ok, rules are :
- People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

- Tag '10' people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it them.

If you've done this before... Do it again!

Tagged by - Ciaee
Tagging
- Christopher, Yvonne, Pui Ping, Pui Yuk, Jasmin Lim, Ityra, DianaNeko, Darren, Ying Yi, Ciaee =D

And we begin!

o1◢ How has Blogspot changed your life?
(Or if you don't use Blogspot, how has blogging changed your life?)
-Well...it has kept me occupied during my boredom and got involve with some famous bloggers and be part of the blog war comments...haha.

o2◢ What's your favorite quote/ saying?
-Life is like a Role Playing Game . We strive to walk on our path...but do we ever walk straight? I look at these hands and wonder how long I'm able to hold the treasures of the world.

o3◢ What are you going to have for dinner tonight?
-Mom's cooking , I guess.

o4◢ What is the ONE place you want to go before you die if you had the money and the time? And let's keep it to somewhere on the Earth for now, shall we?
-Ermm...well, I guess it would be Angelina Jolie's bedroom... but when I die would be another question.She probably won't be around when I'm old.

o5◢ Which type are you based on the Enneagram of Personality theory? [http://similarminds.com/test.html]
Type 6: Loyalists, Heroes / Rebels, Defenders

Sixes long for safe stability above all else. They exhibit unwavering loyalty and responsibility, but once betrayed, they are slow to trust again. They are particularly prone to fearful thinking and emotional anxiety as well as reactionary and paranoid behavior. Sixes tend to react to their fears either in a phobic manner by avoiding fearful situations or by confronting them in a counterphobic manner.

Ego fixation: cowardice
Holy idea: faith
Passion/Vice: fear
Virtue: courage
Stress point: Three
Security point: Nine

the definition for Type 6 from Wikipedia. [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enneagram_of_Personality]
- Paranoid, eh? I guess that comes from my mom. Cowardice? not too sure about that.

o6◢ What do you do in your free time?
Play games.

o7◢ Do you trust easily?
It takes 20 to build a bridge... need to have a strong friednship foundation in order to gain that trust. So..yeah, I don't trust too easily.

o8◢ What personal belonging do you have with you everywhere you go?
My handphone , my thumb drives, my mp4 and my bone necklace.

o9◢ Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
-Yes, being in love with a friend is the biggest mistake of my life. Especially with someone who thinks being in love with her is base on a motive, and saying that the friendship has been cheated by the one who fall in love. This just fucking hell piss me off and my effort was for nothing. But I do what I know best,....I smile.

1o◢ What is your favorite Anime/ Manga and list at least one fanfic from it you recommend.
My favourite manga:
would be Bleach, Dragon Quest, Dragon Ball, GS Mikami, 3x3 eyes, Yu Yu Hakusho
My Favourite Anime:
Scryed, Sokyu no Fafner, Aquarion, Raxhephon, Full Metal Alchemist, Full Metal Panic, Seto No Hanayome, Macross Frontier.

Yeah....I watch alot.

Recommendation? Well...try watch/read and see whether u like it.

11◢ Is being tagged fun?
Well, Ciaee's work is only at home, so ofcourse it's fun for her. Haha, anyway...for me, I have no choice cuz 'I can't refuse it'.

12◢ What one thing would you do differently if you could?
Go back in time and excel more in music and don't bother about relationships,

13◢ Do you prefer rain or snow?
snow...never experience one.

14◢ What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Ciaee? hohohohoho.....Ching Cia Ee ar? Small,I consider her light but don't really know that yet. Ermm... weird, loves yaoi(eeewww), spunk, ermm...talented, butt only on chair at home, seldom, ermm...loves Nutella(I don't owe her at all! >D)Puffy cheeks, errmmm.....just a weird friend ler. Good to have one, atleast my life not too boring.

15◢ Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
WTF , can't I be married & rich? I want to be like Tatsun! Married & Rich by the age of 36.

16◢ How many children do you want to have, if any?
Depends on the future, no point having alot of children if the country goes down. I'm being serious in this part. I don't mind the amount, just whether my wife can take it.

17◢ What's better- to give or to receive?
Receiving, no point if I keep on giving if I don't receive anything back.

18◢ If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Both ofcourse would be pretty, I guess those which can score the highest points in personality & habits.

19◢ Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
Wow...I'll be available for 24/7,

2o◢ Is there some sexual position or act that you have secretly wanted to do, but haven't?
Well, always wanted a girl to do the cowgirl and reverse cowgirl on meh :D

I still feel like crap.

2008-07-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

I feel normal, I'm healthy... I'm moving on , doing my job...loving it even though sometimes the project is a little messed up, hang out with...well, with some people, play games to forget things...

But why do I feel like crap? Why is it that I don't have the mood for anything? All I'm doing is pretending to smile and laugh. But every time I sit in the train and look outside of the window... I somehow feel lost, like I don't even know what I'm doing. Don't even know what I'm supposed to do. What's my goal now anyway? Even after talking to some of the people I know about my problem... it's still not good enough, somehow... I need a real reason to why I'm here. Religion can't help me in this because I already know what they are going to tell me the same old crap.

But it is true about one thing, it's so difficult to forget... and I hate pretending that it's okay, I hate lying about it. But it's the only way to shut some people's mouth from asking me the same annoying question. I'm so frustrated...I don't even know what I want now.. just because of one single event, a prophecy that came true...my road crumbles and end up to a dead end.

I hate being alone...I hate being stuck and left behind, I hate to be forgotten. I just feel like returning to my grave because I feel like I don't exist here...no reason. Why God....why did u take my happiness away? Why have u lead me to a wall? why...did u crippled my black wings?

Am I being hated so much?

Work style >)

2008-07-18T20:30:00.000-07:00

Here I'm gonna share a little bit on how I normaly work in the office. Ofcourse I won't tell what I'm working on, just want to tell you an interesting way of how I normaly 'need' to work like. I need to multi task when I do my work. It's been like that since high school. During that time, I need to study while playing games or listen to a music or watch TV. It works pretty well during my college time , except for rushing work.

So in my office, I do the same. Yeah, how I do work is a little bit funny. I need to multitask at the same time...if not I'll feel sleepy.

So somtimes on my 22" Samsung LCD screen in my office I would normaly ofcourse open 3D max program to do my work, have an internet browser open to search & read blogs or comics, have a video player (realplayer, media player or VLC) to play my musics or downloaded movies and tv series (yeah..been watching alot of TV series and also have the MSN on to chat with friends =).

Oh, sometimes I play games while I'm doing my work...the game needs to be in window mode so that I could switch from playing games to working on my stuff. But lately I've not been doing that anymore....seriously, now is always after 6pm (work ends) then I play my game. Yes, 6pm is my end time at work...but I stay back till 6.45pm and catch the 7.03pm train. Why? Because the KTM train schedule before that time is always crowded with people. But Friday is the worst , the evening & early night schedule is crazy! They are always crowded! So damn crap wei.... the government never bother to improve the public transportation. Why? maybe they think it's a waste of money that they have confidence in the KTM people to fix it. This is so bloody crap.

Well, that's all... so, this is how I do things at work. Don't like it?, look at the pic below.

I don't care (this is not my office though, it's my apartment room)

Losing the Will..

2008-07-18T09:36:00.000-07:00

I feel like crap this week...alot of good & exciting things happened this week but I dunno why as if I don't have the will or the spirit to be myself, the hyperactive weirdo is like gone.

Let's see... what have I done this week.

well, work ofcourse...like the usual. On Monday I met up with my old friend since standard 5, Eddy Leow... along with his gf and his sister Veronica Leow. We had our dinner at Station 1 in ss15, had a really good chat...we were there from 8.45pm till 11.30pm.It's been a while...like about almost 4 years, haha!.

Hmmm....work also... teusday night I watch WWE ( World Wrestling Entertainment ). Yeah, I like wrestling, it's so interesting.

Oh, found Cia Ee's blog... had a chat with her also, it's been quite a long time too (Darn,I still owe her a Nuttella, but no worries!It's been so long that she doesn't want it anymore!!! >D) .

Been reading other people's blog while I'm working... fills the boredom .
Hmmmmmm....
Thursday nothing much.

Hmmmmmmmm....
Friday night went for cell...learn some lame ice breakers, learn a few interesting lessons.

And now I'm blogging....

Wow...very interesting week =_=

The Fallen in the Void

2008-07-14T18:30:00.000-07:00

FICTION
The dark fallen's words:

I've been tossed in here by light, never to return back. It's so quiet here, so dark... I can't see anything. My chest....there's a hole, I'm bleeding...but why am I not dead? My wings....it's crippled, my left wing has been torn to half. I can't fly my way out. There's no ground for me to step on, I'm floating? I can't touch anything...there's nothing there. What's going on? Why is there a hole on my chest, why is my wings crippled? Have I been exiled? Is this what you called a 'Banishment'? What did I do? I can't remember....my head....there's a liquid flowing out, am I bleeding?BUt I can't feel anything, no pain? I can't see anything here, I can't feel, I can't smell, I can't hear ....I can't taste anything. There's nothing but emptiness here. What's going on.....

I curled myself , I guess it's the only thing I'm doing now. I'm trying to remember what has happened to me. I could only vaguely remember. A light, is that the light that I came from? No...this light is different, it has compassion and feeling... a feminine spirit? A fairy? The image is so blur. Why does that have to do with me being here? Wait...the image, my hands were hold... my chest... wrapped around by the light, it feels....warm. I denied it? Why did I do that...I tried to run, but then something stopped me...something touch my lips, taste...sweet...and soft. What is this? I felt a sudden warmth and my spirit collapse to that contact. It felt..peaceful. This light....her face, a female...angel.

I don't understand...it hurts so much to dig in deep to my mind. It somehow hurts to remember. We were sitting on the top of a waterfall, she holds me close...whisper closely to me "In everyone, there's always a light watching over them...in that way, you could never be alone. I'm your light....I'll never leave you,a promise from my heart".What?? Never leave me?......but where are you now???? I don't see any light! I can't feel any of it??? Where are you!? My head hurts....tears flowing out from my eyes....heart.My heart? the hole on my chest....my heart is gone. I...can't feel anything. Is this what they call...loneliness?

I drift mindlessly in this vast Void that I'm in. I want to die..... I can't live on like this, I want someone or something...anything would do to incinerate my empty corpse. But there's no one to answer my call... why do I bother, I feel so hopeless. All I can do is to dig up more memories, memories with her. This feeling....I missed her, I want to see her again. God... why can't I see her? What did I do? Why am I here? Are you trying to tell me to forget about her? It's hard... it's impossible for my to forget it.

I can't go on like this....

I feel like sleeping...maybe for a very long time, never to wake up. I can't get my answers at all... I'm here all alone....

alone...

...huh?

Something feels warm?...but I don't see anything. A noise,...something is cracking, what is that? it's from behind..from where I came. I look behind me (oh god it hurts!), a small tiny dot of light. What? Is that a way out....I can't move, how long have I been sleeping? I can't reach....my hand... can't reach. " Don't go!Let me out!!!Please!! Don't leave me here!" But....

it close, the light is gone.

Noo.... no!!I cried endlessly, My only chance to get out....and I can't bloody hell move! Why!

why....

"I'm here"

huh!?? I look up....that small tiny dot of light...it's back! But...it's shooting out. Swirling around like as if in search of something. "Who...are you?" It stopped.... then it dash straight for me! What is that? IF it has come to end my life....... i guess GOd does answer my prayers. I cover my head ...but why? I should be glad to receive the hit. I closed my eyes to not know what's gonna happen to me.

Something touched my hand, it feels...warm and soft, it spread my hand....they are hands... soft, smooth hands? The pair release mine and touch my face...the light, came close and reveal a female face. Oh my God, it's her...the one who.....

she sealed my lips with hers.

" You remembered me...and this is how I found you here. Remember? In every person, there will always be a light watching over them....and also care for them, and love them...never to be apart.In that way, you could never be alone. I'm your light....I'll never leave you, it's..." I continued her sentence "..A promise from my heart.... my heart....it's.."

She put her hand on my chest where the hole is at "...your heart is with me..." She rest her head on my chest "It has always been with me.... just don't disappear from me again...promise?"

" I promise. It's a promise from my heart. Let's escape from this place...to a world where It's a Time for Us."

We vanish out of this place in a form of light....

We found a place called Eseiga , where a place,....a time... For the Angel and the Reven. A time for us.

The Simplest of Things can be ruin

2008-07-13T23:24:00.000-07:00

There's one thing that I hate about companies and industries.... they never make up their fucking mind. Even the simplest of concept can become the most complicating concept ever!

My game project could have been simple! A simple story , a simple game play and just one playable character which should be useful, reliable and dependable and kicks ass for once!

It's a little too late now to make the game to a Puzzle solving adventure game!Now a lot of things need to be added in the freaking level. Now 70% of it will be change, WTF!

All the while I thought we're still maintaining the same game project... but like I said earlier, the simplest of concept can become the most complicating concept ever.

Life at my studio... AGAIN.

2008-07-11T09:15:00.001-07:00

Yes, I dunno why but I like to post up things as to how my work place is like. The place I'm working at has potential because I'm serrounded by very talented people which with their skills, we can do a better game. We have up to over 20 people now, when Yvonne comes in..she'll be 22. We all here are working our ass off to pull this game through, we want to finish our 1st game as soon as possible and quickly start off the next game. The next we'll do it better with proper game plans and work flow.
We'll do our best!

Yeah, the place still looks new...but atleast it's comfortable to work. The guys here are great to work with . Here are the recent pictures just taken this week.

Ever wonder why those bunch of people gathering around?

Because the pizza is here! We ordered Canadian pizza....not bad to say.

Dig in!!

Ta Daaaa~!!! We finish! all within ....10 - 15mins. >D

See....we even clean it up, we take care of our work place. Yes we do~

Smiles & laughter

2008-07-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

Woah...forgot to post this up, better do it now before I forget.On Teusday me and few of the church friends meet up to have dinner together with P.simon and his family at our favourite usual spot...Restoran Sri Bidara. It's been awhile that we've not hang out with him. THis is the good time to cherish the memories ahaha. He's not in our church anymore, he is now a senior pastor in a church at Damansara. When he was at our church, he was our youth pastor for a very long time. He was the 1st pastor I've met and that was during his birthday party in 2004, and that's when I got to know the guys at church and be more active & serve God in that year.

Anywayz...here's the pics~

P.Simon and his wife and kids at the end of the table.

Kevin just want to let u guys know that...he is not Anti social. Sam's face here looks funny >D

Sarah Wong & Ms.TIANG~

Angku cheering up Sam

They are such loving people.

YEah....I know, "what is she doing?"

Keng Guan with his Sony gadgets >D

Chris enjoying WWE on the tv and JOn chatting about music guitars.

Removing what's left of my pain.

2008-07-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

Today at the train station , I checked through my messages on how much space I have left. Then I realize.... I'm still keeping her messages. All those messages really brings back the painful good times, ....I don't need to remember the good times. It felt worthless to me now about all those events.Me coming back to her as a friend was but a motive?Cheated on the friendship?If I knew she was gonna think like that, I would have stayed invisible from her.

Thinking that I'm with her again who has changed , who has become stronger than before and more mature (maybe just the looks). But I was really wrong, not being able to see her properly. Most of it is because she's not very honest with me about Zen and maybe quite a little of other things.Zen, that little twirp boy...and she considered me as a close/great friend...haha, what a joke.Yeah, she coupled with a boy.Why? "Tiger and Dragon very ngam! Tiger & tiger will clash!" I'm not a tiger and she doesn't know that,such close friendship we have.But in a way, she sticks with that guy because of that mumbo jumbo bullshit belief. Maybe in the next 10 years when I'm already married , she's still dating younger guys... maybe, can never know...next one could be a little rat.

She changed big time in that,from older guys to now younger guys and her personality has not changed one bit and she is too blur to realize what is it that she's not changed. And she doesn't take some things seriously.Now I wonder why Joey now is not that close to her anymore, now I know as I'm like her at the moment.

She is still the same as how I left her last time.... but dun worry, it'll be my last time seeing her.

I know it may sound very cold , but this is really from me... she's not worth my time now, even as a friend... she's just ordinary. Only honest friends who I'm really close with are in my great friends list.

I deleted all those messages of her, but only kept some to remind me not to make the same mistake again. Good riddens...

Keep ur head in the Game!

2008-07-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

Argh... our project is getting more messed up , alot of changes are still going on! The new gameplay is no fun anymore and the story is complicating, not to mentioned that we don't even know what's our dateline and if the dateline is being pushed further later...it's not a very good sign for us. Publishers are expecting something from us and our new game play idea & maybe the story...doesn't seemed to be able to pull it through. Sure maybe we could sell it and get a couple of 100Ks or million...but the rating of the game would not even reach as high as Other Mediocre games. I'm seriously worried man.

I still prefere our old game play idea which is simple 3rd person adventure game where u go around fighting bad guys and using alot of cool spells, rather than more puzzle solving games and less enemy to fight. It's superbly boring , and there's new characters added in which I'm not actually againts it...just that it's making the game play more complicating. To simplify things, we don't have a core game play according to one of my colleague.

This Friday me and my colleague has asked our boss to have a respond to the game idea meeting with the game designer and with some others who have comments about our game.I hope that he would take our suggestion and able to save this game in time. I do not want our studio to end up like in the article at Gamasutra.com.

The happenings...

2008-07-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

Well, the days are as normal as my usual. Doing my job where in some I have to redo it again and again cuz the concept is not right (which is not my part) and have to create a new concept for it. After I'm done with my 4th level, I'll be helping out in the character animation....hurray~.

Hmmm...other than that, last Saturday I had a frappucino night with my crazy nutty friend who refused to give me the secret password , Jasmin Lim. Had a talk with her with my problem and talk some other stuff too. I had a good talk too , Ee Min!

P/S : I'm always GOOD!

Been chatting with paige too, it's been awhile since I've chat with her. Ahh...finally, I'm sick and sleepy. Yeah, it's one of those month where I'll get heavily ill which surprisingly I'm still able to go to work. I never thought of getting an MC unless I'm fatally ill (heavily and fatally, sounds the same... and both sounds critical to u guys, but it's not for me...I have stages of ill conditions)

So, that's all I guess....

Diablo III!

2008-06-29T18:35:00.000-07:00

Yup, that's right... Blizzard did it again by surprising their players on the upcoming sequel of Diablo. For more info, check out www.blizzard.com

Embrace the new Sun

2008-06-27T09:24:00.000-07:00

Walking alone gives you alot of space and free will to think.. staring at the golden sun.I've missed this. Nothing clouding in my head, walking down to the train station and looking at the sky. This time , the cool breeze of the wind ,the clear morning sky and the golden sun rising from the east... this is how the feeling of a new life should be. It's different from dissapearing.For that I only wish that I get an amnesia and forget about whatever I did for the past few years, even though it's one of my fearful injuries to have. Amnesia just eases the pain and not being able to remember.

But now , I'm a little glad that I've no longer have a burden heart.I'm emptied and ready to be filled again...and this time, I'll do it right. I can start something new here, although ofcourse... the past will do whatever it takes to haunt me back just like how they did it to the old guy before me. Now there's only one more prophecy left to be fullfilled ...

This morning , I look at the sun... a feeling of a new life. I welcome that life with a new style....

I raise my hand , turn it around, Embrace the new Sun and say...

"Bring it on, suckas..."

The Day after his Freedom. He died for being in Love.

2008-06-25T18:10:00.000-07:00

The day after my freedom (from previous post), the old self died... the idiot died by the very person that he loved. I guess his blurr dream vision was kinda true. It was not done by physical impact... but with words & feeling, that his love was for nothing. Being use back as a dagger or a spear pierce him deep.

This was the words of his loved one...

" ...You know what? I appreciated our friendship...but I just realize something after my fren pointed it out.. you were frens back with me coz you have a motive T.T . It's coz you want me to be your someone only you frens back with me? Then when i want to have someone but it's not you, you want to dissapear..I'm not sure your motive is good or not but i feel like you just want something from me only you dampingi/fren me if not you won't even bother bout me like you wanted to now..last time u wanted to be my best fren also coz of that motive..Haih it's really so hard to find good frens who just simply appreciate being frens these days..and not being frens for their own wants and motive..Haih i feel like my friendship with you just got cheated...and your mistake? I don't think it's a mistake unless like i said not a true fren. Sigh~ i just feel disappointed..newayz, I hope u keep smiling too..take care"

This is what a person gets for being in love with a friend for a long time, that man didn't get the chance to take the step to change his life and have a renewed friendship with her without any feelings or whatsoever.I'm here as a different counter part of him...to tell about his story, his ruined love story.

My mistake 6 years back was that I should have shifted my class beginning of form 4 because there was too many gangsters in the class, but I didn't because the moment when Regine and her good friend Joey came in late...I fell in love with her on the 1st sight.I tried to get to know her for 2 years...then, we were going to different colleges, I didn't want to loose her...so I became....her friend. I was blurr at that time, a real idiot for doing that...but what can you do? I can't loose her.

During my time with her, I bare the pain of seeing her with other guys being close to her plus I never knew about her previous 4 ex-bfs that she had. But when she coupled with a big-mouth jerk who smokes and works in a cyber cafe only... it blew me, she rather be with a guy like that....because of what? Some stupid Chinese Horoscope match making? Older guys are more mature?She only knew him for 3 weeks and boom!They are kissing away. I disappeared because I couldn't bear it, I couldn't believe that this was the girl I fell in love with.And other than that, I did confess to her my feelings before she coupled with that guy...As a person who loved her, it's hard to see her with someone else.

I was doing fine when I dissapeared from her, bear in mind that deep down inside of me still has that love for her, but it's just buried. When during the end of my 2nd year of dissapearance... we met at the pyramid bus stop. That feeling started to resurface back when I saw her, she looks even more beautiful than before, but when her new bf at time came....it sunk in deep.8 months have passed since that time, on february year 2007, I receive a message from her that she invited me to her birthday party ...I wanted to decline, but...that feeling inside of me just wanted to know how she's doing, so my mouth just blurted out "yeah...okay".

Few months later,On that same year, I keep seeing her few times. On Tim's birthday, Tim ask me to pick her up... I guess it was okay for me , but I don't know why I agree on that.She was single at that time, broken up from her new bf because of her ex punching him on the face. From that day on , we've been going out together. What have I done... I've gone back to my past again. But this time I thought she has changed, she has grown more mature than last time. I could see a little bit that she has changed. But in the end, I was mistaken.I go back to her because that feeling that I have for her resurface...that I was foolish enough to try it again.Yeah, I was a damn fool to try it again.

Recently for the past few months, she's been telling me that she's been hanging out at her ex bf's house. Which got me worried until I asked her "be honest with me, If you are going back to him...just tell me, then I'll stop" She then told me....honestly that she wants to go back to him despite on all the bad things and bad attitude that he has. She never told me that she still have feelings for him which is so strong...That he was the one because ....Dragon and tiger memang very ngam. She still believed in that bullshit, meaning....she was still the same as before I left her. On that time, I was an idiot...a renewed idiot. On that time, he wanted to kill his old self and get a new life, telling her that his friendship with her...will not be the same, it'll be different.

But the next day,he didn't get to do that.He died reading that message(above) after his freedom,he cried knowing that this is what he gets for falling in love with someone he wanted to be with for so long, end up dying by her words. She said she understood his feelings, but I don't think she does at all with that message....He was able to reply back his last words...

" I'm sorry if u thought that it was a motive because it was never. All this time, I never actually treated u like a friend...But I treated u as more than that. I treated u as someone I want to care for, someone who I want to protect, always be there for her...to listen to her problems, i did all that because I was in love.But it's always difficult when I became a friend which it wasn't my intention...but i accept it just to be with u .This...was my true feelings, not a motive to get something from u, I didn't cheat u in our friendship. I'll always love u, gine. Whether i vanish or not, i still loved u. But I guess it's pointless to say all this now. I've messed it up anyway. Goodbye, I'll c u....someday"

Just that, it won't be the next day as today is his funeral in my heart. I'm carrying out his will to live on as a new person. Never to go back to the past, and never make a mistake with a friend.

Here's a goodbye to him, January 2006 - June 2008...he died by being in love.

Feels good to be Free.

2008-06-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

Now I don't have to worry about it, I'm free from whatever confusion that I had for almost a year now. Basically, the prophecy that Pastor Benedict Rajan mentioned came true, " A thing in the past that you have forgotten will come back to you " ... and that's the painful event that I left behind, that I forgot...that I've made a mistake of going back to it again. I finally faced that earlier today... and I found the truth, and now I'm freed from the truth.From this prophecy to come true...I've realize what I need to do now. I need to renew my life now, the old me has died off with the truth.

I'm not saying that we can't be friends anymore...just that we won't be the same as before.This time, I'm only a friend who doesn't have any strong feelings for you anymore...you're just someone I know for a long time. Be happy with Zen, gine... =)I have a life to renew.

What the hell am I doing , God?

2008-06-23T07:38:00.000-07:00

I write this to you to ask you a question about me, what the hell am I doing,God? Why am I trying so hard to be back with the past? Why am I going back to the one thing I've tried for 2 years forgetting? Why am I doing this?Why is it that On March,I suddenly had a turned of fate of meeting back with the one person I've forgotten for 2 years.I suddenly attend her birthday party? Why is it somewhere around late August I decided to follow Tim and her to Suzanne's birthday party?? Why is it that on November 2007, I picked her up to attend Tim's party?? Why is it that after that we started to hang out again just like last time?? What's going on?? Didn't I make an oath that I wouldn't see my past and forget the stupid things that I've done? What the heck is happening!?? Crap, now I'm having mix emotions again! This is not how it's suppose to happen! Benedict Rajan prophecied that the things that I forgot.....will come back,... and... No, it won't come true.... u've never been this generous to me. Now I see the result...I'm repeating the event again. Why is fate forcing me to do this! Is it fun to force me back to that painful moment again??? Years of worshipping u is not enough? What else you want me to do anyway??

Now all I wanted to do is just to be with her, but when I think of that....I still remember my past, how can I allow myself to be like this.I became a christian for you, I have friends like I've never had before ,I graduated, I've got a job, I've got a car which I can drive freely around, I've got an apartment which is convenient and now...the thing in the past came back to me, just to see how I will handle it this time. If I were to have your love & blessings.... I'll take her hands, and never let it go. But all this are happening because u want to fulfill the bad vision I had last year, am I right? Am I some sort of an omen child to you? IF you can , just answer me...because I feel like creeping back to my sorrowful sanctum, like I always have before I known you.

I'm so thankful for God's mercy! +D

2008-06-19T18:44:00.000-07:00

Why am I so thankful for his mercy upon me? Because....

Last Sunday, I lost my Wow account/Got banned from the Admin for exploiting my account from other user who is not allowed to use my account. To cut the story small, my Wow account got hacked! I don't have alot of gold in my character, why the heck would they want to hack me? geez....

Anyway, it took me a few days to get their form, fill it in... send it to my sister who is in Glendale,CA in America to mail it for me to blizzard.I send an email to them saying that my password could have been exploited by Adobe flash player which leaks password information.( to all viewers, please update your Adobe Flash Player for safety precaution)

So what did I do while I wait till miracle to arrive? I play Warhammer40,000 Soulstorm, at home I play GTA IV in my xbox , I play Team Fortress 2 in my pc ( Ahhh.... you know la, can't live without games).

Finally!! Today! I got an email from Blizzard that my account is restored!! I change my password and now I can play!

MUAhAHhaahHAHAhAHAHAHahaHAAhahHAHAahahAHAHHHAAHAHahaha~!!!!!!

Nyuk nyuk nyuk >D

*quack quack*

Meooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~!!!!

Thank you ,GOd!!

A freakin nail to me BRAIN!

2008-06-11T06:21:00.001-07:00

Arghhh, being a 3D level builder in a game development company is not easy at all! The concept actually is very simple for that job position, just build up the damn level based from the concept art given by the concept artist and hand it to the lighting artist. It may sound simple and easy for any 3d artist around , but it's very different when dealing with technical stuff based on the engine. Compared to character modelling & animation, Level designing is even harder! Dammit, so many technical issues that need to be aware of! It's such a freakin headache to keep an eye out for any of those buggers when building stuff.

Imagine this, I still have to fix things in my 1st level! Been handling it for 2months + till now!Sometimes some of the problems are new problems which resurface because of lighting applied or maybe something else in Game Engine. Argh...I've never had this much stress last time when I was handling 3d characters.

I thinkk for the next game, I'm better off being in the character design team.Being there is less stressful than my current position, plus something I'm good at doing which keeps me going on.....Animating.

Death only come once, will I get the chance to love you before then?

2008-06-03T10:11:00.000-07:00

Death as we all know, comes only once. There's no such thing as a 'rehearsal' for this. When the word 'Death' comes to my mind, it's not just the end of life...but the end of any opportunity that u wanted to do. For most, they were able to get it live out through it...for some don't get to.

I wonder,will I be able to live out my life and make it worth my time? Will I be able to achieve big goals and successfuly own a well known studio in the world? Will I be a real famous guy?
My dear love, will I be able to get the chance to be in love with you for a long time before my day comes? Will I be able to hold your hands and walk down that park to enjoy the company of each other? Will I be able to feel your kiss everyday? Will I be able to get the chance to say 'I love you' everyday or everytime I look at your face, your beautiful eyes, your wonderful smile, your smooth silky long hair, your soft skin....will I be able to feel all those on you? Will I be able to get a ring and propose to you someday to be my wife?

Will I be on time to see our children grow and they be proud of their dad while the old man watches them grow up proudly? Will I live to see my grandchildren. By then, will you still love me till I rach my day? Because I know I will... I'll love you every second in my life, I'll not force u to love me... I won't force u to make a decision, I won't hurt you or etc. But I just want to hold you close, shield u from any harm, protect & care for you... and love you everytime. I'll love you till the day I draw my last breath.

I'll love you, whoever you are....

World of Warcraft!

2008-05-22T02:40:00.000-07:00

I would like to write about my current game addict I'm in, and that is World of Warcraft.I've been Addicted to this online game for a long time now, started early this year. This game is actually quite old...since 2003, before then I didn't have enough money to pay the online monthly payment(which is needed to continue playing).So now i'm working I can pay for this! Haha!! Thank god this game didn't die, the world of warcraft is currently in the Burning Crusade expansion and an upcoming expansion will arrive soon later this year called The Wrath of the Lich King.

Now, Why am I addicted to this game compared any other online game. Well then :
1. Many race and classes to choose from.
2. There's profession class which helps in gaining money and making good items or food.
3. There's alot of skills to learn in a class , and talents gives additional support to the character's ability and skills.
4. There's different kinds of transportation to use to travel around places like Zappelin Airship, flying mounts,Ship carrier, portals, etc.
5. Auction house which serve as a trading system.
6. Can send message,gold or items through mails.
7. Exciting dungeon(goes in a group),Arena matches, battlegrounds and Raid to earn honour points and medals in order to get Epic gears and armor in the later lvl!
8. Breathtaking environment to explore, more than up to 40 places to go!
9. Alot of Items to put on the character which helps to boost stats of the character.
10. Cool looking armor from common, enchanted, rare and Epic equipments!
11. Up to more than 10 quest to do for each area ( imagine 30+ areas !) Different areas have different difficulty.So it'll be crazy for a lvl5 Blood elf paladin to venture to the Burning Steppes which is a lvl50-60 area.
12. Alot of creatures to fight with including bosses, elite monsters, npc of the opposition and creeps.

One thing though, once u join a server and choose a faction...u can't create anymore character of the opposite faction. U'll need to be in another server to join the opposition.

So let me introduce my character.My character is currently a lvl 51 Troll Shaman (Battle Shaman type) , currently in Feralas area.

Yes....I love my drinks, I drink alot.

I wield a two-handed axe called Kang the Decapitator, so my Shaman's shout out to any alliance bastards is "I'm a freakin Axe Wielding Troll Shaman, B****h!!!"

As a shaman, I can shepshift into a ghost wolf, increased my speed movement by 40%.

This is my mount (creature that I ride on which increased my movement by 60%)

Now I'm the idiot.

2008-05-18T08:58:00.000-07:00

It's true, I'm an idiot...I keep calling other idiots , idiot...when I myself is also one of them.I'm an idiot for believing that there's hope or a miracle.I'm an idiot to believe that there's a chance I might get a breakthrough in my life this year. I'm an idiot to believe that all my prayers will be answered, a forgotten thing which will return to me.I'm an idiot for not believing in reality instead of faith.

I'm an idiot for believing that friends are always there for each other. I'm an idiot for having alot of friends in my life when all they do is mock me or look down on me. I'm an idiot for trusting the closest friends I have, there's no such thing as a close friends or best friends. I'm an idiot for being a helpful person. I'm an idiot for being dependable for others. I'm an idiot as a friend who is not worth it.

I'm an idiot for believing that love could happen through friendship. I'm an idiot who thinks that I could get back with the person whom I vanished from for 2 years. I'm an idiot who keep wanting to go out with that person I vanished from , when all I get is being postponed or cut away at the last minute because something came up or her other friends suddenly change their mind and say that "we're free!!". I'm an idiot for being patient. I'm an idiot for hoping that it'll work out with me and her. I'm an idiot who falls for her . I'm an idiot for believing that God would bless me a miracle with her, that something magical could happen. I'm an idiot for believing that I could out beat her ex bf by hanging out more with her which I now think it's a mistake and I'm losing to that idiot.

I question myself alot, why does God allow an idiot like me to be here...I'm not worth it.

Tag by the Tagger >)

2008-05-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 1.37am Saturday 10th May 2008

Name: Johnny
Sisters: 2
Brothers: 0
Shoe size: 11
Height: tall enough, dun ask.
Where do you live:Subang
Favourite drinks: Teh 'O' Ais limau
Favourite breakfast: Cheese omellete
Have you ever been on a plane: Duh
Swam in the ocean: Duh...
Fallen asleep in school:Duhhhhh.......
Broken someone's heart: Once.
Fell off your chair: only when I'm drowsy
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: ....yeah
Saved e-mails: that one auto save ler....nuthing I can do.
What is your room like:My entertainment chamber
What's right beside you: bed
What is the last thing you ate: Kaya & butter toasted bread.
Ever had chicken pox: duh....
Sore throat: DUh~!!! WHo hasn't??
Stitches: Yup...3 , the rest are scars
Broken nose: once
Do you believe in love at first sight: used to.
Like picnics: never had one.
Who was the last person you danced with: Regine, long time ago.
Last made you smile: Jasmine....gila girl.
You last yelled at: my computer xD

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: nop...
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: abit
Talked to an ex: no
Miss someone: yes
Eat: food
Best feeling in the world: had a talk with someone to straighten out my thoughts.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no~......
What's under your bed: my old college assignments in boxes.
Who do you really hate: fate
What time is it now: 1.47am

Random:
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yes.
Q: Do you have any siblings: didn't I answer this already?
Q: Do you want children: Talk about gf,then get married 1st can or not??This is a scary question.
Q: Do you smile often: almost all the time, some for good reason, some for no good reason at all.
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: Ofcourse, my handwriting mar right?
Q: Are your toenails painted: I'm not a girl, weirdo.
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: my parents....is so big and comfortable!!! I can spread my hands and legs~!!
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: white singlet
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday:driving back from LRT station
Q: I can't wait till: I fall asleep?
Q: When did you cry last: ...
Q: Are you a friendly person: Find out yourself ler. How can I tell u...right? >)
Q: Do you have any pets: just 1 pet.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now? SHould be at home by now.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? ....yes.
Do you sleep with the TV on? no....waste electricity la! I have to pay wan leh!
What are you doing right now? ............that's a really stupid question.
Have you ever crawled through a window? NO, because I know 'men' build doors for a reason.
Can you handle the truth? What's the truth 1st >)
Are you too forgiving? depends on the situation
Are you closer to your mother or father? ermm...well, both I would say.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? God.
How many people can you say you've really loved? only 1. the rest was just a crush.
Do you eat healthy? I am.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? nop...we've never taken one, never got the chance.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? nop.
How often do you go to church? every week..
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? trustworthy friends/friend.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? Well....I'm not Lillien nor am I like Hui Cong (But now Hui Cong talks alot now, no thanks to Darren )
Are you confident? In my work...yes,relationship..........nop.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago..
1- was in primary school, standard 6.
2- hang out with Eddy Leow almost everyday.
3- cycling
4- scout
5- gone taller.

5 things on my to-do list today (Saturday)
1- cut hair
2- watch Iron Man again
3- Celebrate Mother's day.
4- Have Dinner/supper with Regine
5- Try to fix my work assignment stuff.

5 snacks I enjoy
1- kacang
2- Mr.Potatoes tomato flavour
3- Milk!
4- chocs
5- biscuits

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- get a zonda
2- get all the game platforms
3- get a bungalow
4- create a game company of my own.
5- Commit/get married to my love one if I get one.

5 of my bad habits
1- lazy
2- blur
3- play too many games
4- kiam siap
5- being too nice & helpful

5 places I have lived in
1- Johor old house (baby)
2- Old United Garden near Old Klang Road
3- Penang
4- MY Subang Jaya house
5- My newly apartment which I'm currently staying

5 jobs I've had
1- Student
2- waiter
3- Ninjutsu assistant coach
4- Retail Assistant in MPH
5- -

5 people I tag
1- Lillien
2- Jasmin Lim
3- Carina/Haane/Haa-Ne/Han Han (Evil Frog)
4- Yvonne
5- Joanne Chan ( Read this and do it! )

Different Faces

2008-04-26T04:45:00.001-07:00

This is just for fun, finally got the time to post all this pics up.

Something is Wrong, My Cup is Empty....

2008-04-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

I feel like shit here in this place. I don't even know why GOd place me here, I'm probably better off living in a better place far from here. Here, I don't get any filling of life in my cup. I get nothing but dust. I can't even get what my heart desire. I can't even get the one that completes my incomplete life. What the hell am I suppose to do here?????JUst stay here? Work?Play games by myself??GO to church like a good little boy?Hang out with friends which I get no value back from them!??Adults giving me advices which I already know???? Argh!! It's crazy here!! I feel like I want to go insane or blow!

Here, I feel that I'm so useless!! I get nothing which satisfy my heart! Nothing but pain and aches.Every time when I'm so close to getting it, someone would just swoop in and take it away like a F***ing eagle catching it's prey.I contribute or lend them my help, but I get nuts in return!I hate being the nice guy every time, most of them will use my kindness for their own beneficial,....I keep thinking why the heck did I do it anyway?? I didn't get anything in return! I felt like destiny or fate is playing with me, not giving me what I want but what it wants....like I'm sort of a freaking puppet who has no control over his own life. I know it's wrong to be selfish....but I fucking hate that theory. Being nice doesn't fucking help at all!!

This is really bunch of crap... life.

Realizing the Reality

2008-04-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

It's time to realize things right now, I should stop pretending that it's not. I must start realizing the reality of how things really work right now. I'm no longer a kid nor a teen, but a young adult. It's time , to see things clearly. If you're not sure what i'm talking about, i'll explain it now.

In reality , everyone is made ...flesh & blood to be 'not' perfect. But instead, the creation itself strive for perfection and doesn't even realize that it doesn't exist on humans. Why aren't we perfect? Because we have the good side, the innocent...merciful, caring and soft side of us which most people would think that it's their real personality.But, we were made along with our ugliest, our shameful, our immoral behavior and all which is bad that sums up the rest of the remaining part of a human soul.I realize that I should have expect that more from the human soul. And I always meet their ugly side.Judging them would be useless because it is part of who they are.

In reality, Love is never always ever lasting.It withers like a flower, sometimes easily shattered in an instant. No matter how much hard work you've put it in to make it work, we'll have to face it that we'll always end up being slam straight to a dead end. It doesn't matter whether you look cool, or smart, or mysterious , romantic, gorgeous , strong , sensitive , hot looking or etc.... love, not all... last forever, because not all that last....forever.

I must realize it myself, the people I'm close with, the people relationship with... doesn't always praise me, wish me good luck, cheer for me , compliment me , love me nor support me. I always end up being ganged up , mock at, blamed, teased, yell at & etc. I'm never always lucky, sometimes being quiet helps....but they never leave you alone. Returning back through words at them doesn't also works because that would start a big issue. Pretending would be useless .And all I just did, is just smile at them and give a slight giggle.

I should realize , that I'll never get a good remarks.... for most likely i'm always the sitcom of the day....and it doesn't help for being quiet. Story of my life.

Lillien , oh Lillien.....only know how to Tag , Tag , Tag , Tag , Tag......~!! >D

2008-04-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

Sigh....

1.At what age do you wish to be married???
-Is there such thing as a copper age? hmmmm....nevermind. Well...give me a hot babe and I'll marry her on the spot, make sure she is the Datuk's daughter...I want to kill myself If I ever want to live in poverty.

2.What is the best thing that happened this year???
-Get to hang out and have dinner with a few hot babes,dunk someone's head in to the toilet bowl, laugh at an intern , got my XBOX 360!!!, Got a few COOL games!, check out more babes, laugh at Lillien ( dunno why ), Got myself a pet sister who wouldn't stop asking me questions while I'm at work!!(she got unlimited credit!sigh....thank god I dun have a real little sister), made alot of crazy mad psychotic laughing lately, mocking the government, laughed at the rulling party for their downfall...and, been working very hard (REALLY!) =D.

3.Where is the place that you want to go the most???
-Girl's room.....God knows what mystery lurks in every inch and corner of those room, and I like to be the investigator =D. Nah...just kidding, but it'll be interesting though. Anyway...ermmm, Angelina Jolie's house.

4.If you were destined to have a major illness, what would it be???
-DESTINED!!!!??? What do you mean DESTINED????? That's like the worst fate ever , man! Arghhh....damn, can't believe I have to answer this. Ermmm.....brain cancer.

5.Do you believe you can survive without money???
-Ahahahahahahahaha.,,, HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA...........WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH~!!!!!! HELLL NO!!!!!They are like my life energy man!!

6.What are you afraid to lose the most???

......................Everything that I have!oh, and my faith .

7.If you would win $1 Million what would you do???
- Wow....every man's dream. Utopia....
a. pay off my car and make it mine
b. Get a 32inch LCD tv build on the wall on my room
c. Get a PS3
d. Get a PSP
e. Get a Wii
f. Upgrade my com/get a super computer
g. Get an iphone
h. get married to my girlfriend (if I have one)
i. Get a tux
j. Get a message chair
k. Build a gym of my own so that I dun have to go out to exercise.
l. Save the rest of the money for my future, for my children....actually, I'm just gonna have 1 kid.... better.

8.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her???

Oh yeah....why not?? GO FOR IT!!! TELL IT OUT!! READ out every word in your heart is on!! Look at the shocking weird face of them and get ready to panic!!EMBRACE the truth!! And maybe probably die of a heart attack or something after that, or just stand there like a stone.

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-HAh....I bet she wants to read this 1st among the rest of the question, ahahaha.
a.Noisy - why is that good? = keeps it lively
b.Sarcastic - Why is that good? = So that it's not so boring!
c.LOUD - Why is that good? = So that if I were to really hang out with her, I don't have to ask her to repeat. I may have to wear headphones or something .

10.What requirements you wish from your other half???
- TO be as hot,sexy,lustful as Angelina Jolie, I know that Darren will be laughing at me with his Kill kenny beer and say " It'll never happen , man! She's mine!".

Hmmm.... well. As long as they are themselves, they have good personality and not ruining it with bad things outside. They must be beautiful, a must!

11.f you are given the chance to go back into the past and make a difference, will you???

I probably would.... I would be a celebrity by now or something and make all the girls love me. But nah!!!! I'm okay as who I am now =), love God for this.

12.What kind of person do you hate the most???
-
a.Those who pretend what they are not.
b.Those who cheats
c.Those who disturbs the order of 'Peace'
d.Those who are superbly slow
e.Those brainless drunk clubbers.
f.Those with no real character.
g.Those that take life for granted and not appreciating it.

13.What is the most embarrassing moment of your life???

Singing audition for my secondary school graduation. What the hell did I do that for!??

14.What is the most important thing in your life???
- Mon....I mean, GOd... ofcourse. ALWAYS! and then money. Love will replace it if I get it.

15.If there's ever a war (or something similar) happening in your place, are you gonna move to a safer place or hide???
-well... I dunno, I can just go off on a street, kill the enemy ...take his ak-47 and start killing everyone and save the country!!Or....I can go to a save place =)

16.If you have the chance which part of your character would you like to change???

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............

17.Who are the people you share your problems with???
God,and my beautiful car name Angie! Ahahaa....

18.What's your weakest point???

Hmmmmm....intelligence, cuz truthfully....I'm not a real genius or a scientist ,man. I'm just an artist.

19.What's the thing that you're most proud of???
-My....xbox. Muahahahaha...Wahahahahahhaa.... HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH~!!!!!!

20.What is the one thing you regret the most???

SO many lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........lazy lar, I go sleep 1st. I'll write it down next time. *yawn.........*

Who to tag ar? I dunno larr.....too lazy to tag ppl now, plus....I don't think they would do lor......*yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.............*

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

My Fun Studio!

2008-03-28T19:50:00.000-07:00

Ohh yeah!! Love my job man! I love....ermmm, like my colleagues..hehe. They are really bunch of cool people to hang out with and also team work was not a problem! Every time we go out for lunch , a few of us like to show signals to each other to look out for any hot business lady around Plaza Sentral!The studio consist of 5 Chinese guys, 8+1 malays, 3 indians, 1 korean and a Bosnian+German guy in our studio. THe numbers are just nice, we are quite comfortable at our work, We have milo prepared for us!We have alot of cups , alot of forks and spoons, a fridge to keep our drinks cool, a water dispenser.... although, we are waiting for the few following items:

1.52inch LCD tv on the wall
2.XBOX 360
3.few comfortable chairs and sofas
4.Pool Table

Is it a little too much?Ahahaha....all of these can be acquired when we sell our game to the publishers in US, can't tell too much. So we are working really hard for our goal!! GO GO, TEAM!

Anyway, yesterday we were too lazy to walk out from our Studio for lunch, so.... we ordered Domino's PIZZA!!! And the delivery was really fast! Just order through online and 20 mins later, they are here!!! >D

DOmino's Pizza , Paperroni!!

Look how cheeeezey my pizza looks!

CIMB premiere night

2008-03-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night I went out for a ,well...this is really complicating to explain. I got invited to the CIMB premiere night at 1 Utama One World hotel, guess what...I'm not part of CIMB! Ahahaha...I'm actually filling the sit for my friend who was not able to go because he had last minute event, and he paid for it!He was supposed to attend the dinner together with Regine and her parents because they are all part of it. So, Regine called me from my work and invited me to attend on my friend's behalf.

So anyway, the Premiere Night is actually an Award Winning event that the CIMB have every year and according to Regine, the costume event comes along with it because every year it's a different theme. So this year it's called 'Glorious Athens!'. Now if I get this correctly...those who got awarded and receive the qualification award from CIMB , will be flying over to Athen ....I think, for further business, or a Holiday trip or maybe something else. I don't know all this things because I'm the only artist in that event!Kinda weird!

Anyway, the event was great...the food was good, get to know abit about Regine's parents, saw alot of ppl in their costumes ... took picture of them and watched all of their performance . I like the singer who sings at the stage, he is Regine's mum's friend, a higher ranking guy in CIMB. He is damn good in singing wehh! The way he sings is like the mixture of the Tom Jones vocal tone and the Josh Groban vocal controlling!Superb! Had a great night with Regine and the parents. I should thank my friend for the free dinner he belanja me! HAHA!! >D

me and regine

Costume award giving

Regine taking picture with her phone more canggih than mine >(.

She actually looks beatiful from this picture.