Sometimes I wonder , "Why always Me".... in any situation , "Why always me". This can happen to the good things that has happened in my life and also the bad things as well. At first I thought that I should watch what I ask for or what I tell, for I'll end up getting something or most of the time receive a bad respond. Even by being polite, I'll sometimes get a negative respond with high tone manner like I ask a stupid question or make it sounds like it's the end of the world.BUt not all the people that I know of does this, only some who are very close to me does it. Things like these normaly always happened to me, I'm not sure about the others.... but normaly, these are the responses that I get ...and I'm sick of it.
There is nothing wrong by asking or telling. 1st of all, I never ask a question more than one time. I'm not like my mom, When I ask a question....I'll make sure it's clear, if they don't find it clear enough then I'll tell them again slowly. And when they tell me something, I'll make sure that I get it at the first time....if I don't I'll ask again the question or what they are trying to say.
If you were to ask something that you don't know or something unfamiliar with, how would you feel that the reply they give you or maybe any gesture that they do makes you feel like you're the dumbest person in the whole world. For me, I seriously don't like it.... a person trying to ask something and the respond I get is " hah? That also you don't know wan arr? Iyohh....bodoh lar (dumb)" or "You damn Noob larr(lousy)". I would slap that person if he give me that kind of person, but I'm not the same person as I was last time.... because I know that being polite would not create any problems for anyone. But in my heart, I'll be cursing at that guy.
I love my friends , they are the people part of my life who keep me alive .... but there are certain things which has limitation to it especially when it comes to jokes. Jokes is okay.... but stop targeting at the same person all the time, like me.... it can get a little annoying. It's like anything that I do or say is always something to laugh about. Anything that happen , I'm being pointed at. When I make one joke , then later they all make a big joke at me....alot of times, more than me. I'm like a walking laughing stalk.
I guess it doesn't make a difference if I post this thing up anyway, it'll still be the same thing as always. Feels like there is no point being a good guy all the time or being sporting or trying to mix around, anything would still be the same.But it does not matter,because I believe in the prophecy that I've receive from God and I'll continue to pray and walk towards him, not going to let anything or anyone else to defect my life and my walk to God and to his Kingdom of Heaven.