Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Yearly Evaluation

The New Year is finally here, 2009 has arrived and bye bye to shitty 2008 for me. Oh....almost forgot.

Happy Blessed New Year!

Now as promise, I'm gonna write about my 2008 evaluation and what I'm gonna expect for 2009.

That year has been my most misreable year for me. I hate that year, it has caused my downfalls and crumpled my life like a piece of paper and just thrown to the side. Nothing great happened in that year, nothing worth remembering except for painful memories. In that year, I learn alot of great deal of reality....of what it really is going on around me. I was never happy in that year although I could still put up a smile.

That year I have alot of people that goes off to far away places and some going to many different paths. Alot of people I'm close to left for a better future. Like my studio manager, my sister, my youth pastor, some of my colleagues. It's like one by one they are peeled off from my life .

I suffered a great deal of pain from a...'close' friend I've been with for 6 years which I have made a mistake to grow too attracted to her. And for that, I paid the price. The prophecy that I received ' A returning thing that I've forgotten' was my pain and decisions which brought my downfall.And it is my fault that I repeated my mistakes for thinking that it'll be different than before. I was gonna make up for my mistakes with her, willing to renew my friendship.... but I was stabbed hard by her for thinking that I had a motive for coming back to her, saying that I cheated her. I then realize she was totally not worth it at all. Made me so frustrated and regretted alot because of her.Last time I didn't blame her but myself for my stupidity, but this time it's different. I've erased her existence in my life, although I do realize that one day we'll bump into each other again.... but that time I won't have the same view of her anymore.I just don't want to see her anymore.

That year has spoiled the look of my appearance. I've gained alot of weight compared to last time.THis is how it is when you're downed, you simple don't give a damn about anything else. I've not been active in martial arts and my regular cycling activities. This has caused my image to look bad right now... and I need to gain back my old self.

That year has caused misery in my work, but I realize that it's never easy in the working life. But just that the work I've done with all my hardwork and effort can just be thrown at the side or re-design because of wanting to have a different look, all of a sudden. Wasted alot of months for some work that I did. And other than that, I've been too nice. I keep willing to agree to help do extra things for the church when I already realize that I'm busy with my work at the studio. But still, my studio...the management is just lousy to me, poor planning and sillines.

That year, I've been cursed by misfortune. I get bad lucks more ofthen than b4.

That year made me realize who my real friends are and now I know who is and who isn't (dun worry Jasmin, you're one of my real crazy friend).

That year I'm lonelier than before.

BUT, I do have some which I appreciate and thankful for :
1. I get to communicate more with Cindy Tey
2. Meet alot of interesting friends.
3. Gotten closer with my colleagues
4. Had an awesome Joint Youth Camp.
5. Didn't get my car banged at all.
6. Got myself an XBOX 360 and a PSP
7. A new attitude after my downfall.
8. Oh, started Warhammer 40 000 boardgame. WAR!

So what am I looking for in 2009, the year of the Ox?

- I'm gonna work harder in my life, rebuild back my image and focus harder in my work. This time I won't give a shit if it's discarded or renewed by someone else. Get closer to the real friends that I know of now. And to finally find a happy life that I've been longing for. Achieve alot of Greatness that is worth remembering and may fortune be cast upon my life and my family.

Have a blessed 2009 everyone. =)

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas to Everyone!

Hey Everyone, Merry Christmas! I hope you enjoy alot on your eve and christmas day with friends and family and get alot of good presents! If you don't like the presents, well it's the thought that counts. On eve I spent my night at TImothy's house because they were having a Christmas eve party. So they invited friends and relatives. I got for Tim's parents a very small christmas tree, looks nice wan leh! Anyway, we did caroling, ate the food (the lamb as always taste soooo good!), had alot of chit chats with my friends and sarah's friends and we end up telling Ghost stories on christmas Eve! >D 2 person scared of driving back but they still went back driving close to each other, funny! So the time hits on midnight and it was Christmas! We gave presents and we pulak go upstairs and watch alot of youtuve nonsense video. I recommend you guys to go youtube and check out 'How to be a Ninja', there are several other different versions made by them so check it out!

On Christmas Day I attended church, sing caroling and give gifts! I got sweets, glowing cross key chain, the joint Youth camp photo frame, and some christmas cards. Couldn't mingle for too long cuz I needed to sent another present to my dear little friend , Jasmin Lim. So I drove there and gave it to her, I made it in time! Cuz she had to go to KLCC with someone so can't be too late. Phew >D. Then later at night I went to my sister's apartment for Christmas, I had to smuggle my dog in to that apartment....not an easy task when there's security people everywhere! Anyway, the dinner was good (left over is for my lunch later >D) and I got good gifts! Oh while I was there, I watch one of my sister's dvd and he is one of my favourite actor...Ryan Reynolds. This movie called 'The Nines' is a must watch movie! It's good, it's so good! It really is a brain-melting dazzling mystery. The writer, the Director and a good performance by Ryan Reynolds did a damn good job in this movie. Go buy and watch it!

And since it's still the christmas season, I embeded a video file of Karen Kong singing Silent night. She's really good , dunno why Malaysian idol kicked her out... they have no idea what they've done. Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone and a


Saturday, December 13, 2008

Joint Youth Camp 2008

Youth Camp was great! 1st time joint camp between GTS & NCA. The traveling was interesting, the dormitary was cool, the games & activities was fun , the time of worship together was super awesome and the words given by Pastor James Foo was marvelous. Had a great time with the NCA guys and we got along really well like we've known each other for a long time. I pray that we'll have another in the future.

Pics and details probably be later.

Cheers, God Bless.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The Greatest Gift from God.

I was born in this world for a reason, to be part of it. To be part of what God's creation is like, to I myself am part of that creation. I can't deny his work for what it is. He too told me that this place has alot of temptation, alot of danger, alot of risk, alot of difficulties ....all the barriers that I'll face in my walk to return to him. I did ask him why I was sent here..... it was such a simple word he gave me and also the message was the greatest command I ever receive and obeying right now.

And that word is..... Life.

How I live it was up to me, that's part of the reason why mankind was given the ability to choose and make their own decision. It's true that this world alot of difficulties and tons of evil corruptions are going on. But I can't just close my eyes and pass by all those things. Knowing them is part of what life is supposed to be. Knowing the good, and knowing the bad helps in building one's life in terms of maturity, perspective and knowledge. Books or lecture isn't enough for that, you have to experience it and know what it is. And then comes the decision to take it as part of the lesson in life. This is the daily test he set for us, to see whether we can adapt to this place.

I admit that in the past I was walking blindly without knowing what my path is, until he saved me and made it straighter. And again he told me that same word, that's what is important because it's the greatest gift that anyone here can have in their lives.A birthday gift he has already given when you've set your foot on this world.

How you live is totally up to you, don't let anyone tell you how to live.They can help you in walking better but don't let them pull you to their side. Make your stand firm and as strong as a mighty tower that cannot be shaken. Choices and decisions are all up to you, do not let any other people take it from you and make it up for you. It's your life that God entrusted you with, and he wants to see how you've progress at the end of the road. And do not deny the reality of this world because it is how he has created it to be. Denying the world means that you're denying his great work through men, they are created for a reason.... it is for us and it is the only place we could live in before we proceed on to his place.

Live your life in this world, it's your own road you're walking on.